Good to know that I'm not all talk and when push comes to shove I'd do anything in my power to help a friend. Classic case of actions speaking louder than words

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Totally putting my depression on the christmas list this year. If anyone deserves a gift it's that for always being around. Thanks!

all signs point yes

Haven't done this in a while but look at this horoscope:
Monday, Nov 16th, 2009 -- Today's New Moon in your sign is like your birthday because the wishes you make now can really come true. But it's not about whimsically saying that you want this or that. It's about visualizing the year ahead and imagining the best possible outcome to the present situation. Then think about what you must do to manifest your fantasy. Finally, speak your intentions out loud. Creating a ritual helps more than you think, so try lighting a candle and blowing it out to get into the proper spirit.

Doesn't help that I may be about to have the most ridiculous, spontaneous, and senseless day of my life. I'm a level-headed girl that doesn't let things get to the best of me, but I also can't argue a valid point...

What's the point of being young if you can't be stupid?

These post are always bitter. Today I'm conflicted & confused. Too bad there's really no one that lets me talk enough to think things through. Ugh, need a sign.

How hard is it to contact someone? In this day and age, it's basically impossible for a friend to not be able to deliver information. At least, so I thought...

It sucks most knowing that you can never be the person you used to be. One day I'll be over it, until then I'll figure something out. Fake it til you make it.

I like, like you, like you...

I've never felt more unsure about my life as I do right now. Help...

I wish my body gave warnings before falling into a state of depression. Cancelling plans and hopefully enjoying some aspect of life. Bummed!

Just when I think you've reached your limit, you find a new way of showing how delusional your self image is. Wow... Of everyone I know you need the most help.

Why am I still falling for you after so much time has passed? The littlest thing and I can forget the months of headaches

Now show me what you're working with, you dance your way from bed to bed and try not to make it so obvious. You always make it too obvious.

True colors always shine bright, even when it's pure black. I refuse to be sucked into your black hole of an existance nor am I afraid to hit eject.

So glad I don't let people phase me

I can't believe I didn't do Justin Long

I have a kindergarden crush on Justin Long that just grows with every daytime and latenight interview. He's seriously what I invision when someone says "boyish charm." With that being said... the list (courtesy of iMDB). I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

1. Drag Me to Hell (2009) .... Clay Dalton
2. Still Waiting... (2009) (V) (uncredited) .... Dean
3. He's Just Not That Into You (2009) .... Alex
   
4. Patriotville (2009) .... Chase Revere
5. Zack and Miri Make a Porno (2008) .... Brandon St. Randy
   
6. Just Add Water (2008/I) .... Spoonie
7. Strange Wilderness (2008) .... Junior
8. Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story (2007) (uncredited) .... George Harrison
   
9. Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007) (voice) .... Alvin
10. Terra (2007) (voice) .... Senn
    
11. Live Free or Die Hard (2007) .... Matt Farrell
    
12. Idiocracy (2006) .... Doctor
13. Accepted (2006) .... Bartleby Gaines
14. The Break-Up (2006) .... Christopher
15. Dreamland (2006) .... Mookie
16. The Sasquatch Gang (2006) .... Zerk Wilder
    
17. Herbie Fully Loaded (2005) .... Kevin
18. Waiting... (2005) .... Dean
    
19. Robin's Big Date (2005) .... Robin
20. Wake Up, Ron Burgundy: The Lost Movie (2004) (V) .... Chris Harken
    
21. Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story (2004) .... Justin
    
22. Hair High (2004) (voice) .... Dwayne
23. Raising Genius (2004) .... Hal Nestor
24. Jeepers Creepers II (2003) .... Darry Jenner
25. Crossroads (2002/I) .... Henry
26. Jeepers Creepers (2001) .... Darry Jenner
    
27. Happy Campers (2001) .... Donald
    
28. Galaxy Quest (1999) .... Brandon

It'd be so easy to lock myself away and drink until I no longer felt this hopelessness in my heart. Too bad I don't have health insurance...

Sometimes I wish I was artsy

No pants has never been so fun

"What up T-shirt Girl???"
Classic how certain people can say the most meaningless shit and my day improves exponentially because of it. :)

SWEET BRAGZ!!!!!!

I come right after Ashlee, I'm aok with this!!! PS bro only follows 50 cats.
Life is hella good!

boredom = survey

What was the last thing someone threw at you?
themselves? haha oh wait money, yup

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
oh for sure

How was your day?
redic and eventful so overall good; so exhausted

Do you like anyone?
I like you like like you like you. Haha I don't think so maybe

Have you lost anyone you wish you would not have?
most def

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
hmm not a clue

Are you a happy person?
I'll say yes

What are you wearing?
Party Naked tank and no pants

What are you looking forward to?
Going on an interview of some sort

Is there something you want?
always, isn't that what drives us all?

Is there anything you'd like to say to anyone?
Sooooo many things to soooo many people I made a post a couple down with a small list. I would love to tell someone that they are one of my only life regrets and I have to deal with that

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
couple hours ago

Are you wearing clothes?
sure

Are you wearing socks?
not so much

When was the last time you cried?
it's been a while actually

Do you cry yourself to sleep every night?
i did for almost 2 months, that's ended finally

What's the initials of the last person you kissed?
I wish I knew, hahaha that sounds so bad

What was the last thing you drank?
sweet tea

What color is your camera?
neon green

Who was the last person you commented?
Fiona maybe could be Erica not too sure

Who was the last person you were in a car with 18 and under?
Is Karlynn under 18?

Have you ever flipped out in public? What about at a family gathering?
Oh for certain, I've kirked like no other not at family functions though

Do you listen to Paramore?
uh duh

Where was the last place you fell asleep, other then your bed?
kitchen table

Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
mmmm not that one kid but sure have

Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
black tank neon letters says Party Naked

Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
backseat windows up...

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I didn't even sleep at night to wake up in it

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
psh no

Have you fell asleep in someone's arms?
that's the best, I need to do that more

Where is your phone?
on my ear cause I'm using it

Do you have Verizon?
internet and land line

Do you think you would be able to handle being in the military?
not at all, i don't take direction very well

Who is your last text from?
myself

When is the next time you’ll kiss someone
probably tomorrow

What is the reason behind your Myspace song?
who doesn't know a dirrrty girl??

What is a fact about the last person you kissed?
bro is in a band like always

Would you rather have the ability to fly or the ability to read minds?
oooo i would totally abuse both of those, I don't think I should be allowed either actually

Have you ever trusted someone you wish you wouldn't have?
nope i don't trust people often

Name a site that you visit everyday:
careerbuilder

Another survey to pass the time

What do you think about the last person you kissed?
He was actually solid kid, although I don't know jack about him. Maybe we'll cross paths again

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
That one boy I care far too much about for my own good

Did you sleep in past noon today?
Not so much

How many different colors are you wearing right now?
3

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
clarity or direction maybe even purpose

Do you have a lot of dreams for the future?
That's something that'll never change, at least I hope

Do you want someone back in your life?
Such a loaded question. I'm probably doing better without these people and I gained so much in their lost but you can't help yourself but to think hmm what if, yanno

Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past five days?
Sure did and I emotionally ruined myself like I always do; I'm such a girl

How is the weather right now?
So nice, the sun is out with a few clouds there's a breeze and the temp can't be anything over 70. I'd say ideal

Is anything annoying you right now?
What isn't, I'm so irritable right now it's insane

Does anyone call you babe?
Nope but close

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Attempted to clear my head, we all know how well that went

Is this year the best year of your life?
Wow no. Well maybe, it's hard to say. It's pretty freakin good all things considered but there's always room for improvement

Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment?
Multiples, why can't I just find someone already that it's ok for me to fall for

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
yup

Do you have nice eyes?
So I'm told

What are you doing besides this?
Talking to Stacy, she keeps me sane

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
I think I have a movie date with my dad

What's the first thing you did when you woke up?
sighed and rolled over

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
Eh, some of my friends aren't the best judges of character. A lot of times I'm a hard-headed determined idiot. So I'll just say not as much as I should.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Yup, I hold so much in and hide so much more

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Hell to the no, but I'm working with it the best I know how

Would you ever get a tattoo?
Probably not, committment...

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
Nope...nope not that I know of

What made you happy today?
Stacy reminding me that I'm not the only one that gets fucked over

Would you date someone twenty years older than you?
Doubtful, at this rate I don't think I could meet a guy 20 years older. I have enough trouble meeting one that's older than 20, haha

Are you close with your mother?
sure am, but I don't tell her as much as I should

Did you speak to your father today?
yup <3

Have you ever kissed anyone with a last name that starts with K or Z or T?
Hahahaha so many of you would love to know

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yeah and it wrecked me more than it did him, but he'll never know that

Are you listening to music right now?
Not in the least bit

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point and aren't around much anymore?
Sadly

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
helplessness, exhaustion, confusion, lonliness. I'm basically avoiding myself right now

Anything you would change about your life right now?
I think there's a lot to working at things and not taking the easy route so I'll keep on trucking but thanks for the offer

Trying

I was getting better with this whole eating and sleeping to survive thing. Not so much. I just need circumstances to get better. Trying hard to keep positive...

CSWS

Going a million miles a minute. It's so fast sound can't even keep up

Let's get it!

I just set up my phone and email with the blog. Expect more posts comin at ya from all directions. And now Cleopatra is stuck in my head...

Bitch I'm shinin

By looking like everyone else...

Hooba

Survey says

I haven't done one of these in a minute. I figure why myspace when you can blog?

10 things you want to say to 10 different people; no names:
1. You can do and be so much better than what you are. Stop settling and think before you leap!
2. I know how it is to get caught up in the moment, but why did you leave the very people who would do absolutely anything for you? Better yet, how can you look in the mirror knowing?
3. Why must I always be the first to start a relationship? I'm tired and throwing myself out there especially with the history we have. It's been a good ride and just when I think its dead and gone we find each other.
4. You mean more to me than you will ever truly realize. I can't believe we haven't been friends my entire life but now that you are in my life. Don't leave like the others did. I can't take that heartbreak and who will tell me I'm not crazy?
5. You're crazy and I love you for it. We don't talk/hang nearly as much as we should. But I know that if push comes to shove you're there for me and I you.
6. You and me that makes sense homie. Not sure how or why but we're the real deal. La la la and junk like that.
7. I don't know where you came from but thank you. So many memories in such a short amount of time. We're nothing alike and everything alike. And I wish that you had as much faith and confidence in yourself that you have in others. So much potential so much to offer the world. Just freakin do it already.
8. Sometimes I just want to grab you and shake you and say "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?" But I can't so I don't. Just cause I'm not always in sight doesn't mean you aren't forever in thought. There's so much I want to say and show but you're way too hardheaded for that. So I'll just keep doing what I'm doing and wait for when it's my turn to step in. Ugh you might cause some gray in my hair but I guess you're worth it.
9. Have you forgotten me cause I haven't forgotten you? Do you still search for me cause I no longer look but I do hope that we find each other. Just to see, what's in the now and if the choices we made were the right to live by. No one knows as much as you, I can still say that. But I doubt that's coming from your end.
10. Oh you. If there's one thing that you take from me and actually do. Stop over thinking and start living. You can't be scared all the time cause you'll wake up and be 40 and wonder where did your life go and you deserve so much more than that.

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. Everyday I strive to be a better Monique than what I was the day before
2. I'm constantly thinking but not always speaking
3. When people achieve their dreams I can't help but to cry
4. I honestly have no idea where I will be in 5 years and not really too concerned
5. I give more than I receive
6. I can't forget the mistakes I've made in the past no matter how big or small and worry that will be the end of me
7. I love life. Just the thought of it and I smile
8. Monique isn't afraid of making a fool of herself cause hey you only live once!
9. When I legit like someone I can't think or breathe and hide my face and grab my hair. It's adorable and foolish all at once.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Show me the real you
2. A child-like spark in your personality
3. Don't let me win especially not easily
4. Somehow show me that I'm different than any other girl without words
5. Vibe with me
6. Quote/sing something I love
7. Have a hidden depth that is only seen after really getting to know you
8. Accept me, good bad all of it

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. Should've/Could've
2. How long can I function like this?
3. The daily grind of the day
4. My friends/families lives
5. What is my ultimate plan?
6. Those few boys that drive me crazy
7. New plans and schemes

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. Give so much money freely
2. Let my stuff take over my life/room
3. Let go of his hand
4. Stop dancing
5. Buy things I didn't need just cause of the price
6. Let Bamboozle 08 and a lot of 2008 suck so much

Five Turn Offs:
1. Egos
2. Shadiness (there's a point where its no longer mysterious)
3. Trying too hard
4. Being a whore or being with whores
5. Not being real

Four Turn Ons:
1. Fucked up Hair
2. Creativity
3. Silliness
4. Style

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. 8-)
2. :-\
3. =p

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Live 100% debt-free
2. Leave the US boundaries

One Confession:
I don't always have the answers and a lot of times I'm making this up as I go along

Dunno

I don't know what affects me more your ignorance, your superior attitude or your judging. Either way none are good or helpful. One day you'll realize that, I hope.

I just twoted all over the place

Real friends would call you?

I love these ads

Hot Topic has the best promo emails sometimes. Look at that "love"

Apparently this makes certain people think of me...

Old School Cereal Commericals

Temporarily out of cash

Talk about nerve wracking. In a few weeks it will be 4 months since I had a job. As the days go on it becomes harder and harder to keep my head up. You start to get that attitude of "the phone didn't ring yesterday, probably won't ring tomorrow" but that's such a defeatist attitude. If I don't try then it will never ring. Something has to work out, I have faith. Just not as much as I'd like sometimes.
It also annoying that with unemployment I can only make so much weekly before it starts being taken out of my check. So I may bust my ass and grind out a dumb amount of freelance hours but at the end of the day I only make maybe 100 more than if I slept the days away. Sometimes I just say "why bother" but then I find the strength to continue. Cause, "ya never know..."
What bugs me most is the amount of money I have floating around. Several people have bothered money, or had me purchase something with intent to pay me back but I never see it. I guess these cats are all a different breed, maybe they've forgotten, maybe they lied to my face? The world may never know. What I do know is that far too many times in the past hmm year to two years I've been given empty promises. Maybe they need it more than I do? Maybe I deserve to be without. Doesn't help that daily I hear a words from my mother although I vowed to stop giving money in any shape or form to anyone anytime. If you want a ticket give me the cash or you buy them and I'll pay you. If ya want a ride better supply a fair amount for toll and gas. Going to dinner and you only have a card, split that check. It's the little things but they add up and this is the only way I can protect my pockets from further damages.
Full of hope, depression, confusion and determination. Hoping the goods outweigh the bad and I continue on to find bigger and better things. Or at least a thing. Not sure how much longer I can continue to tap out my savings and rob peter to pay paul. Simply not use to living like this, I never was the person to spend beyond my means purposely. Nor not be able to do whatever it was I wanted solely on cashflow. I work too hard and follow the rules too well to be in this perdictament. But then again, "everything happens for a reason"

Oh Hot Topic

I'm scared for fashion

My face is wet

When I stop I cry, when I think I cry. I wish it wasn't like this. I wish these things didn't happen. I wish I got to say goodbye or at least see you more before. I wish writing this would help me feel better.
I know you loved me more than I could ever imagine and that helps and hurts all at the same time. So many memories, so many smiles. Who's going to help cut the strings now? How is he truly coping? What do we do now? When does it get better? How can I go through this all again?



Love

What to do what to do?

How can something so wrong feel so right? Better yet, why is it wrong? Funny how I can no longer remember why things didn't work, funny how everything is new and improved without any modifications at all. What to do? Kill it? Revive it? Is it all just concocted in my head? Was it never anything at all? I don't know, I don't know I don't know. For once I don't know nor do I know how to find the answer. Driving me insane, but I can't dwell, gotta keep living. Face the challenges that are in my immediate, not the what ifs and the maybes. Now and only now.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! This is one fight that can't be masked by a scream. I'll resolve to wait it out and test the waters and just watch how it all unfolds. Yup. And now I wait...

She was a good look, for Wal-Mart

BINGO!!!

Insensitive friends

Iono

My head

Lyrics are stuck in my head and I just saw an incredible picture of a beautiful human being that made me smile beyond belief. Times are rough but life is good and full of opportunities and chances. Still breathing all that matters!

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Years later

and I'm still allowing you to ruin me. How is this possible? One day I'll move on, until then I'm here waiting on nothing.

Vests!

This screams shopping spree...

How?

How does one get back on the horse and try again when all the horses are long gone? I mean if you're in the middle of the plains and you fall off but Flicka keeps running, you're fucked.

help.

One day I'll appreciate Almost Famous

Breckin Meyer

I posted about Jason Lee last week, also on my list of actors is the highly underrated Breckin Meyer. He's such a talented man and you've probably seen more of his movies than ya think! The list of movies courtesy of iMDB and as before I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

1. Corporate Affairs (2008) .... Ted Meyers
2. Blue State (2007) .... John Logue
3. Caffeine (2006/I) .... Dylan
4. Garfield: A Tail of Two Kitties (2006) .... Jon Arbuckle
   
5. Rebound (2005) .... Tim Fink
6. Herbie Fully Loaded (2005) .... Ray Peyton Jr.
7. Garfield (2004) .... Jon
   
8. Blast (2004) .... Jamal
9. Pinocchio (2002) (voice: English version) .... Pinocchio
10. Kate & Leopold (2001) .... Charlie McKay
11. Rat Race (2001) .... Nick Schaffer
    
12. Josie and the Pussycats (2001) (uncredited) .... Marco - Du Jour
13. Road Trip (2000) .... Josh Parker
    
14. Tail Lights Fade (1999) .... Cole
    
15. The Insider (1999) .... Sharon's Son
16. Go (1999) .... Tiny
17. 54 (1998) .... Greg Randazzo
    
18. Can't Hardly Wait (1998) (uncredited) .... Walter - Lovebürger Lead Singer
19. Dancer, Texas Pop. 81 (1998) .... Keller Coleman
20. Touch (1997) .... Greg Czarnicki
21. Prefontaine (1997) .... Pat Tyson
22. Escape from L.A. (1996) .... Surfer
    
23. The Craft (1996) .... Mitt
24. Clueless (1995) .... Travis
25. Payback (1995) .... Jim's Son
26. Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare (1991) .... Spencer

Those who can't...

Yanno that saying, those who can do and those who can't teach? I'm not really fond of it but I find myself living just that. Seems like everyone comes to me for relationship advice, the girl with commitment issues. I just want to be like, you do know I've been single since before the day I've met you right? I mean I guess shit ain't changed since 88 but I personally would want to discuss things with someone who has had a something a anything in this millennium. Damn I suck, well no. I guess not since people keep coming to me and it works. I should have been a sociology major, I study people quite well.

Maybe 09 will be my time to shine? Maybe.

My boy Jason Lee

I have a goal to see all his movies (not feeling My Name is Earl and that also isn't a movie), I've been a fan of Jason for a while, he was an amazing skater HELLO 360 FLIP! Anywho here's the list of movies courtesy of iMDB. I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

1. Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007) .... Dave
2. Underdog (2007) (voice) .... Underdog
3. Monster House (2006) (voice) .... Bones
   
4. Clerks II (2006) .... Lance Dowds
5. Jack-Jack Attack (2005) (V) (voice) .... Buddy Pine / Syndrome
6. Drop Dead Sexy (2005) .... Frank
7. The Ballad of Jack and Rose (2005) .... Gray
8. The Incredibles (2004) (voice) .... Buddy Pine / Syndrome
9. Jersey Girl (2004) .... PR Exec #1
10. I Love Your Work (2003) .... Larry Hortense
11. Dreamcatcher (2003) .... Beaver
    
12. A Guy Thing (2003) .... Paul
13. Stealing Harvard (2002) .... John Plummer
14. Big Trouble (2002) .... Puggy
15. Vanilla Sky (2001) .... Brian Shelby
16. Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back (2001) .... Brodie Bruce / Banky Edwards
17. Heartbreakers (2001) .... Jack Withrowe
18. Almost Famous (2000) .... Jeff Bebe
    
19. Mumford (1999) .... Skip Skipperton
20. Dogma (1999) .... Azrael
21. Enemy of the State (1998) .... Zavitz
22. Cuisine américaine (1998) .... Loren Collins
    
23. Kissing a Fool (1998) .... Jay Murphy
24. A Better Place (1997) (as Dennis Pepper) .... Dennis Pepper
25. Chasing Amy (1997) .... Banky Edwards
26. Drawing Flies (1996) .... Donner
27. Mallrats (1995) .... Brodie
28. Mi vida loca (1993) .... Teenage Drug Customer
    

Ma vie

In english: My life

Lately I've been bummed out to all get up. No drive, no motivation, no purpose. Not like I don't have things to do that I need and want to get done. I just can't get myself on the track to do them, hell I can't even bum a ride to the station...
Things are definitely looking up and each day I feel a little more ok, but deep down shit is off. Fortunately, I haven't let anything get in the way of my life.

Bleh blah, woe is me, enough is enough. Damn.

Lately I've been watching more DVDs than I can handle, lots of TV seasons! I updated my portfolio site moniquedidit.com; and for the first time in a while I legit liked the work I had done. Always a good sign. I'm stoked to start working on this new endevor, we'll see how it goes. Def need to put on my business hat for a minute and draw up a contract and estimates and such. The idea of charging someone $500 baffles me, seriously? The work I do is buyable?! No way...
I have resolutions and so far so good, I'll formally write them down sometime next month, you know me, committment issues.
I do fault myself for having the "today is the day" attitude. I should be much further along than I am and it kills me. I need to get my ass on top of shit. Golly, I suck.

As you can tell I'm not entirely here, I can't even keep my words & ideas together. TRAINWRECK!

I give up, peace out til I return =D

2008's Top 25 (according to MTV users)

25. Pink - "So What"
24. Danity Kane - "Bad Girl"
23. Madonna - "Four Minutes"
22. Rihanna - "Don't Stop the Music"
21. Tokio Hotel - "Ready, Set, Go!"
20. Beyoncé - "If I Were a Boy"
19. Rihanna - "Disturbia"
18. Paramore - "Decode"
17. Katy Perry - "I Kissed a Girl"
16. Rihanna - "Take a Bow"
15. Pussycat Dolls - "When I Grow Up"
14. Usher - "Love in This Club"
13. Beyoncé - "Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It)"
12. Jonas Brothers - "When You Look Me in the Eyes"
11. Chris Brown - "With You"
10. Leona Lewis - "Bleeding Love"
9. Jonas Brothers - "Burnin Up"
8. Flo Rida - "Low"
7. Mariah Carey - "Touch My Body"
6. Britney Spears - "Piece of Me"
5. Danity Kane - "Damaged"
4. Chris Brown - "Forever"
3. Jordin Sparks (featuring Chris Brown) - "No Air"
2. Lil Wayne - "Lollipop"
1. Britney Spears - "Womanizer"

Get on the bus

"I’m officially starting the “SHITBETTERGETAWESOMEQUICK” CAMPAIGN 09’. I’ve been in a cave for almost a month, waddling in my own self-pity."

I'm in 100% agreement and am slowly working on rallying the campaign trail!

I AM THE HINT

My President

My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too
My Money's Light Green And My Jordans Light Grey
And They Love To See White Now How Much You Tryna Pay
Lets Go!


Rosa Parks sat so Martin Luther could walk
Martin Luther walked so Barack Obama could run
Barack Obama ran so all the children could fly
So I’mma spread my wings
You could meet me in the sky

I hope to never feel these lyrics again

I've been
happy
before
I know it
maybe
one day
I'll feel that way again
cause
pain and anger travels threw my veins
and nothing seems to
satisfy
As I feed upon the loneliness
Only one thing
Stops me this time

So, still wanna hook up?

If you haven't seen Out Cold yet, check it out!

Also if anyone can find Extreme Ops, make me a copy. Please and thank you

What do I keep doing wrong?

I wish I knew cause I if I did, believe you me I'd stop. I maybe be stubborn at times, but I'm not one to constantly go against the grain; especially just for shits and giggles. I'm at the point that I'm about to just stop fighting against the tide and let the current sweep me away to where ever it chooses to take me.

What's a girl got to do to catch a break?

Objectified

I want to see this documentary! Made by the same guy who did Helvetica. Sorry sometimes my nerdy designer side shows. Speaking of which check out this tramp stamp:

Remember when I was super super happy?

It's ok I don't either.

There's always tomorrow!!

Spears Rejected