Tuesday, December 30
News Flash
A collection of small thoughts
I haven't blogged lately, actually I haven't done much lately. For someone so busy, always moving, always going. I have zero accomplishments on the large scale of things, what's the purpose then? Hope? I honestly don't know and have lost direction. Not a downward spiral because that would at least have meaning, motion, direction, momentum and eventual end. I, me, I'm suspended in space, time, and color. No sign of going, no sign of life. Just existence.
Not like you'd notice, not like there's anything that can be done. Nope not a thing. This isn't depressing, at least it shouldn't be, just words with feelings, just ideas going mentioned. I wish in my heart of hearts I knew what it was I am supposed to do. Who I'm meant to be, where I'm supposed to go. Some small clue that says this way or that. I'm exhausted, and need this nothingness to end. Not sure if I can take much more. But I know I have no choice in the matter. Good thing making the best of things is my specialty.
Christmas has come and gone, I'm glad everyone so far has throughly enjoyed their gifts. I'm fond of bringing smiles to faces and giving to those that has blessed me with so much. You honestly have no idea just how bright you all have made my days and nights. Love, friendship, happiness, life. Always remember at the end of the day all we have are our memories and connections. The stories we live are the things we can give, and including someone in your life, welcoming them to be a part of the most valued possession you have is truely the most beautiful thing on this Earth. I'm excited to finish giving out gifts and sending my love in yet another form.
I've had the pleasure this week to spend much needed time with my family members. I love them all dearly and although I see them on a regular basis I wish I spent even more time with each member. Shockingly I got to visit my Great Aunt who at this point is the closest thing I have to a grandmother. She's amazing, and as I have for the past 20 whatever years of my life, I continue to strive to be just as great of a person as she.
I wish more people appreciated the things they have, wheter its physical or mental. Not everyone is as blessed as others and it's a shame that there are some who just keep wanting, needing, begging, seeking, asking. Be happy with the current, the now. When you're always looking for better there is never a best.
Other things going on in my life that have totalled to my current state. Hmm let's see, Autumn has truely been the biggest test of character for me. Test of morals, test of intergrity, test of my true ideals and wants. If I had to relive September 22th through December 21st, I don't know what I would do. I'd want to say I'd do it all again exactly the same, but in hinesight probably not. Lots of highs and lows, tears and smiles. C'est la vie. I just hope the start of Winter is a death of the negativity and struggles. If not for me personally then for the others around me who need it just as much. I pray almost everynight that the burdens on my friends and families hearts are taken away. Everyone deserves to breathe easy every now and then.
On a totally unrelated matter, I've been thinking a lot about love and relationships this week. I think its the feeling of the season. Sharing with love ones makes one think about having a significant other to share with. I found myself breaking tradition momentarily and instead of watching A Christmas Story all of Christmas Eve night, I put in Love Actually and watched a completely different take on Christmas. So many different ways a relationship can form and grow or end. So much love in people, it's a beautiful thing and maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to have one of my own.
Not like you'd notice, not like there's anything that can be done. Nope not a thing. This isn't depressing, at least it shouldn't be, just words with feelings, just ideas going mentioned. I wish in my heart of hearts I knew what it was I am supposed to do. Who I'm meant to be, where I'm supposed to go. Some small clue that says this way or that. I'm exhausted, and need this nothingness to end. Not sure if I can take much more. But I know I have no choice in the matter. Good thing making the best of things is my specialty.
Christmas has come and gone, I'm glad everyone so far has throughly enjoyed their gifts. I'm fond of bringing smiles to faces and giving to those that has blessed me with so much. You honestly have no idea just how bright you all have made my days and nights. Love, friendship, happiness, life. Always remember at the end of the day all we have are our memories and connections. The stories we live are the things we can give, and including someone in your life, welcoming them to be a part of the most valued possession you have is truely the most beautiful thing on this Earth. I'm excited to finish giving out gifts and sending my love in yet another form.
I've had the pleasure this week to spend much needed time with my family members. I love them all dearly and although I see them on a regular basis I wish I spent even more time with each member. Shockingly I got to visit my Great Aunt who at this point is the closest thing I have to a grandmother. She's amazing, and as I have for the past 20 whatever years of my life, I continue to strive to be just as great of a person as she.
I wish more people appreciated the things they have, wheter its physical or mental. Not everyone is as blessed as others and it's a shame that there are some who just keep wanting, needing, begging, seeking, asking. Be happy with the current, the now. When you're always looking for better there is never a best.
Other things going on in my life that have totalled to my current state. Hmm let's see, Autumn has truely been the biggest test of character for me. Test of morals, test of intergrity, test of my true ideals and wants. If I had to relive September 22th through December 21st, I don't know what I would do. I'd want to say I'd do it all again exactly the same, but in hinesight probably not. Lots of highs and lows, tears and smiles. C'est la vie. I just hope the start of Winter is a death of the negativity and struggles. If not for me personally then for the others around me who need it just as much. I pray almost everynight that the burdens on my friends and families hearts are taken away. Everyone deserves to breathe easy every now and then.
On a totally unrelated matter, I've been thinking a lot about love and relationships this week. I think its the feeling of the season. Sharing with love ones makes one think about having a significant other to share with. I found myself breaking tradition momentarily and instead of watching A Christmas Story all of Christmas Eve night, I put in Love Actually and watched a completely different take on Christmas. So many different ways a relationship can form and grow or end. So much love in people, it's a beautiful thing and maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to have one of my own.
Sad boys grow up, try drugs, and fall in love.
I think the biggest worldwind has been losing my job. I'm glad I wasn't fired, and maybe this is the opportunity I needed to figure out what I want in life and exactly how to go out and get it. However I did like a lot of things about my work, it was also horrific timing and I wish I knew sooner and could plan something. Thankfully there's a small cushion for my bills and I'm able to get some kind of payment, nothing near what I've been making but help nonetheless. Hopefully I find something new soon, and in the meantime can make some cash on the side either from freelancing or payments on debts. You know me I'll figure it out.
I spent a week cleaning my room and assisting on cleaning the house. All of my clothes are finally in my bedroom and I have about five laundry baskets too many. Going through my belongings yet again to donate some things away. Eventually I dwindle down and everything will have a place. Eventually...
My life hasn't been all bads, don't think that. I got things for Christmas I really really wanted, and some of the raddest books ever that make me just want to go out and paint like no other. I also have spent a good amount of time with the best of the best friends a girl could ask for. I saw Adrienne who I only get to see once a year. I hung out with Ebony whom I never spend time with. I went to some shows with Christine & Alexa, always good company as are Fiona & Erica. Shared some smiles and drinks with Josh all weekend, probably my favorite drinking partner next to Sara. Jeff has been home and I couldn't be more excited, I don't think anyone understands the realtionship I have with that boy other than him. I finally got to see Devin who I've missed immensely. He's one of the only people to understand what I'm going through right now. Being home means I actually get to see my parents who are legit my favorite people in the world. I could watch TV in bed with my mom all day and my dad can make any movie better. Even extended the olive branch in attempts to salvage some fallen friendships. I hope the social portion of December continues and improves throughout 09.
Sometime tomorrow I'm going to post a far shorter blog about my favorite things of 08! And not so favorite. Hopefully this will start some good conversations...
With each passing day, I wonder a little less. Not cause I've lost hope or interest; because I know what it is to play the hand that's dealt. You can't always get the winning hand but as long as you keep playing, odds are in your favor...
I think the biggest worldwind has been losing my job. I'm glad I wasn't fired, and maybe this is the opportunity I needed to figure out what I want in life and exactly how to go out and get it. However I did like a lot of things about my work, it was also horrific timing and I wish I knew sooner and could plan something. Thankfully there's a small cushion for my bills and I'm able to get some kind of payment, nothing near what I've been making but help nonetheless. Hopefully I find something new soon, and in the meantime can make some cash on the side either from freelancing or payments on debts. You know me I'll figure it out.
I spent a week cleaning my room and assisting on cleaning the house. All of my clothes are finally in my bedroom and I have about five laundry baskets too many. Going through my belongings yet again to donate some things away. Eventually I dwindle down and everything will have a place. Eventually...
My life hasn't been all bads, don't think that. I got things for Christmas I really really wanted, and some of the raddest books ever that make me just want to go out and paint like no other. I also have spent a good amount of time with the best of the best friends a girl could ask for. I saw Adrienne who I only get to see once a year. I hung out with Ebony whom I never spend time with. I went to some shows with Christine & Alexa, always good company as are Fiona & Erica. Shared some smiles and drinks with Josh all weekend, probably my favorite drinking partner next to Sara. Jeff has been home and I couldn't be more excited, I don't think anyone understands the realtionship I have with that boy other than him. I finally got to see Devin who I've missed immensely. He's one of the only people to understand what I'm going through right now. Being home means I actually get to see my parents who are legit my favorite people in the world. I could watch TV in bed with my mom all day and my dad can make any movie better. Even extended the olive branch in attempts to salvage some fallen friendships. I hope the social portion of December continues and improves throughout 09.
Sometime tomorrow I'm going to post a far shorter blog about my favorite things of 08! And not so favorite. Hopefully this will start some good conversations...
With each passing day, I wonder a little less. Not cause I've lost hope or interest; because I know what it is to play the hand that's dealt. You can't always get the winning hand but as long as you keep playing, odds are in your favor...
Friday, December 26
I'm amazed
It seriously amazes me that sometimes I associate with the most insincere, ungrateful people. I wish there was a way for the world to open their eyes and they could see just how things are and how things could be for them. I also wish I could do more for those that have done so much for me. My father today damn near broke my heart. I could see and feel the grief surrounding him. He of all people should know that I don't care if he never gets me a gift again, he's given so much already. The fact that I have a bachelor's degree is mainly because of this sacrifice and hard work. If anything I should be giving him so much more.
I'm also amazed that some people I consider great friends have completely disappeared from my life without any notice. I'm definitely use to it by now but it still stings to know someone you'd do anything for would straight up ignore you, unwarranted. Everything happens for a reason...
Speaking of which, I've been dealt a bum hand these past few weeks and it seems that things aren't getting better. Actually worst. I don't know personally how much more bad news I can take, nor do I honestly want to find out. Too bad these things are out of my control. All I can do is pray each night that everything will be alright, in hopes that one of these days I won't awake with the remnants of my nightly tears.
I'm in no way shape or form complaining or nonchalant asking anyone for anything. I just ask that everyone pauses for a minute and realizes how good things are. Even with things in my life being as bad as they are, I'm still grateful that I am able to do the things I do and I have the people that I have in my life. Things can always be worse and tomorrow isn't promised to anyone. So I strive to appreciate each day for what it is, a new day full of opportunity and endless bounds for me to make the most of.
I'm also amazed that some people I consider great friends have completely disappeared from my life without any notice. I'm definitely use to it by now but it still stings to know someone you'd do anything for would straight up ignore you, unwarranted. Everything happens for a reason...
Speaking of which, I've been dealt a bum hand these past few weeks and it seems that things aren't getting better. Actually worst. I don't know personally how much more bad news I can take, nor do I honestly want to find out. Too bad these things are out of my control. All I can do is pray each night that everything will be alright, in hopes that one of these days I won't awake with the remnants of my nightly tears.
I'm in no way shape or form complaining or nonchalant asking anyone for anything. I just ask that everyone pauses for a minute and realizes how good things are. Even with things in my life being as bad as they are, I'm still grateful that I am able to do the things I do and I have the people that I have in my life. Things can always be worse and tomorrow isn't promised to anyone. So I strive to appreciate each day for what it is, a new day full of opportunity and endless bounds for me to make the most of.
I just hope I remember this if and when things ever get truly bad.
Wednesday, December 24
XMas 2k8
It's that time of year again when I put my issues aside and make a list of things I wish I had, still not a fan. Use this as a guide to my style, doesn't have to be exact but please please please no skulls! By popular demand, I provided links. Thanks in advance!!
Clothing
Clothing
- Monopoly Themed T-shirt
- Shirt with a girls face(http://images.delias.com//153765_wmu_w.jpg)
- A bomber hat
- NY Subway shirt
- NY Subway hoodie (http://www.fredflare.com/customer/product.php?productid=3342&cat=301)
- Silly beanie
- Panda hat (http://www.fredflare.com/images/products_zoom/2992_4601.jpg)
- Rob & Big Shirt (http://images.journeys.com/images/products/1_72932_FS.jpg)
- Cute long sleeve thermal with (or without) thumb holes with (or without) a hood
- City skyline shirts (http://www.zumiez.com/Images/ResizedProductImages/138/138996_z_s3.jpg)
- Snakes & Suits
- http://snakesandsuits.bigcartel.com/product/new-fancy-ampersand-v-neck
- http://snakesandsuits.bigcartel.com/product/create-new-destroy-old-purple
- http://snakesandsuits.bigcartel.com/product/new-ampersand-necklace-black
- http://snakesandsuits.bigcartel.com/product/new-ampersand-necklace-frosted-clear
- Glamour Kills
- http://www.glamourkills.com/design/1012/PlaidLogoHoodie
- http://www.glamourkills.com/design/949/SALEPolkaPolkaShortSleeveHoodie
- Kid Robot
- Ordinary Clothing
- http://www.indiemerchstore.com/ordinaryclothing/item.php?s=163&c=112&id=1722
- http://www.indiemerchstore.com/ordinaryclothing/item.php?s=163&c=112&id=1073
- http://www.indiemerchstore.com/ordinaryclothing/item.php?s=163&c=104&id=1725
- http://www.indiemerchstore.com/ordinaryclothing/item.php?s=163&c=104&id=2984
- http://www.indiemerchstore.com/ordinaryclothing/item.php?s=163&c=111&id=2988
- Snorgtees
- http://www.snorgtees.com/images/IDontWannaGrowUp_F_Fullpic_4.jpg
- http://www.snorgtees.com/images/ChooseWisely_F_Fullpic_1.jpg
- http://www.snorgtees.com/images/GoGoGadgetShirt_F_Fullpic_11.jpg
- http://www.snorgtees.com/images/SometimesY_F_Fullpic_1.jpg
- PacSun
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=5664
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6467
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6466
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=5826
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=5387
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6617
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6791
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6932
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=7005
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=5502
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=5630
- https://shop.pacsun.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=6471
- http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/new-arrivals/Animal-Style-Blue-Top/index.pro
- http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/new-arrivals/Button-Down-Scarf/index.pro
- http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/sweaters-vests/Breakout-Sweater/index.pro
- http://shop.pacsun.com/girls/girls-handbags/Fancy-Pants-Bag/index.pro
- Paul Frank
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Songbirds_V_Neck_Tee/pd/np/201/p/3467.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Julius_Tee/pd/np/201/p/3304.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Bunny_Girl_DJ_Tee/pd/np/201/p/3064.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Julius_and_Clancy_Puppets_Hoodie/pd/np/202/p/3011.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Nanook_Hoodie/pd/np/202/p/3009.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Patchoulius_Hoodie/pd/np/202/p/3012.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Julius_Ears_Hoodie/pd/np/202/p/3010.html
- http://shop.paulfrank.com/Bosworth_jacket/pd/np/204/p/3236.html
- Zumiez
- Emo Panda
- Giraffe Shirt
- DC Speaker Shirt
- Enjoi Logo
- Shibuya tee
- Just a Friend Tee
- Obey Tee
- Birds in Tree Tee
- Volcom Thermal
- ZooYork City
- ZooYork City 2
- ZooYork V-Neck
- ZooYork Doodle City
- Ralik Hoodie
- Volcom Hoodie
- Volcom Hoodie 2
- Empyre V-Neck
- Empyre Sweater
- Volcom Cardigan
- Volcom Sweater
- Element Purse
- Volcom Purse
- Black DC Beanie
- Purple DC Beanie
- White DC Beanie
- Blue DC Earflap Beanie
- Neff Brown Beanie
- Neff Green Beanie
- Alt Press
- Funky Socks
- Convertible Gloves
- Fingerless Gloves & Arm Bands
- Neck Ties
- Tops with Hoods
- v-necks
- Belts
- Headbands & bandanas
- Motion City Soundtrack shirt
- The Academy Is… Red Santi Hoodie
- The Academy Is... Long Sleeve Hooded Tee
- The Hint Scary Awesome V-Neck
- Purevolume shirt
- Forever the Sickest Kids hoodie
- Farewell Bandana Purple
- Bamboozle 2008 Poster
- Cool World
- Armor for Sleep DVD
- Boy Meets World
- Wacky Races
- Secret World of Alex Mack
- Short Circuit
- Clarissa Explains it All
- Blossom
- Go
- Rob & Big Season 3
- Clone High
- Robin Hood Men in Tights
- Mariah Carey DVD (except Emancipation of Mimi)
- The Matrix 3 movie set
- Lord of the Rings 3 movie set
- Star Wars 6 movie set
- Classic 90s Cartoons and shows
- The Rocket Summer - Calendar Days; Do You Feel
- Armor For Sleep – Smile for Them (CD/Lithograph/Tote Bag Bundle)
- The Academy - The Academy EP
- Remember Maine - Remember Maine EP
- Powerspace - The Kicks of Passion
- Over It - Step Outside Yourself; Silverstrand
- We Are the Fury - Venus
- Angels & Airwaves - I-Empire
- Say Anything - ...Is a Real Boy; In Defense of the Genre
- Mariah Carey – Mariah Carey; Emotions; Musicbox; Valentines; MTV Unplugged
- Say No More - What You Thought You Knew
- Rediscover - Out of Touch
- Motion City Soundtrack/Matchbook Romance Split
- Motion City Soundtrack/Schatzi Split
- Yellowcard – Underdog
- Punchline - Just Say Yes
- The Fury - Infinite Jest
- Anberlin - Cities; New Surrender
- Self Against City - Self Against City; Telling Secrets to Strangers
- Hit the Lights - Until We Get Caught
- Asteria
- You Me & Everyone We Know - So Young, So Insane
- White Tie Affair - Walk This Way
- Just Surrender - Stronger Now
- Pussycat Dolls - Doll Domination
- Story of the Year - The Black Swan
- I can make a mess like nobody's business
- The Lorax & The Butter Bread Book by Dr. Seuss
- Rolling Stone Greatest Album Covers of All Time
- Children's books
- Anything Kid Robot
- Anything MTV
- Lord of the Rings (the expensive one huge book)
- http://karimrashidshop.com/index.php?cPath=38
- An upbeat funky cookbook
- 100 Words to Make You Sound Smart
- American Fashion
- Home Studio Home
- Fashion Wonderland Book
- Fashion Now 2
- Absolut 1 & 2
- 1000 New Designs and Where to Find Them: A 21st-Century Sourcebook - Jennifer Hudson
- 50 Reading Lists - Spin Media
- Action Time Vision - Spin
- Art Of Looking Sideways - Alan Fletcher
- Basics Design: Colour - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
- Basics Design: Layout - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
- Basics Design: Print + Finish - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
- Colour Index 2 - Jim Krause
- Cover Art By: New Music Graphics -Adrian Shaughnessy
- Creative Advertising: Ideas and techniques from the World's Best Campaigns - Mario Pricken
- DIY: Design It Yourself - Ellen Lupton
- Eco-Design Handbook: A Complete Sourcebook for the Home and Office - Alastair Fuad-Luke
- Fully Booked: Cover Art and Design for Books - Robert Klanten, M. Hubner
- Graphics Alive - Edited by Victionary
- Guerrilla Advertising - Ty Montague, Gavin Lucas, and Mike Dorrian
- Humble Masterpieces: 100 Everyday Marvels of Design - Paola Antonelli
- Icons of Graphic Design - Steven Heller and Mirko llics
- Lemon Poppy Seed - Robert Klanten
- Logo - Michael Evamy
- Patterns 2: Design, Art and Architecture - B. Glasner, P. Schmidt, U. Schondeling
- Sorry Trees (Again) - Vince Frost
- Tactile: High Touch Visuals - Robert Klanten
- The A-Z of Modern Design - Bernd Polster, Claudia Neumann, and Markus Schuler
- The Layout Book - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
- Things I Have Learned In My Life So Far - Stefan Sagmeister
- Twenty Two Tips on Typography - Enric Jardi
- Type Idea Index - Jim Krause
- Type Selector Swatch - Michael Worgotter
- Whatever You Think, Think the Opposite - Paul Arden
- Converse (make sure the bottom of the shoe says 8)
- EcoSNEAKS
- Vans
- Volcom
- DC Shoes
- Enties
- Scene It: Movies 2
- The 90s Game
- Let’s Make a Deal DVD
- Show Me Yours I’ll Show You Mine
- Clue
- PS2: Singstar Pop Vol 2
- PS2: Singstar Legends
- Wii: Boogie Superstar
- Wii: SmartyPants
- Wii: Dance Dance Revolution Hottest Party 2 w/ Dance Mat
- Wii: Big Brain Academy
- Wii: Monopoly
- Quesadilla Maker
- Laptop sleeve
- Band posters
- Skate deck
- KURZ dirt devil
- KWIK dirt devil
- Panda calendar
- HP TouchSmart All-In-One TV Desktop
- Best Buy
- Target
- Zumiez
- Vans
- PacSun
- Journey's
- Torrid
- JCPenney
- Ticketmaster
- Neighborhoodies
- Visa/Mastercard/Amex
- Old Navy
- Delia's
- Ask for up-to-date list
- SPIN
- Entertainment Weekly
- How
- Illustration
- Communication Arts
- Anything with a panda (except stuffed animal)
- Anything argyle or another geometric pattern
- Artsy (design) things
Tuesday, December 16
True on so many levels
I've been waiting for a good day
I've been holding back long enough
I've been hurting to tell you some things
it's not the falling of the temperature
that's making all our bones run cold
it's the breeze you make
the presence felt when you're around me
and it feels like I'm at an all-time low
I've been holding back long enough
I've been hurting to tell you some things
it's not the falling of the temperature
that's making all our bones run cold
it's the breeze you make
the presence felt when you're around me
and it feels like I'm at an all-time low
Monday, December 15
Who knows?
So where do we go
Where do we go
You cannot know
You will not know
When you just have to fight to be alone
Where do we go
You cannot know
You will not know
When you just have to fight to be alone
Thursday, December 11
Tuesday, December 9
Sunday, December 7
Not quite right
I just wanted to apologize to anyone that's been affected by my attitude lately. This time of year is a rough time for me as two years ago my grandmother passed away two days before Thanksgiving. No matter how prepared you can be, death is death and my commitment issues have a hard time wrapping my head around the finality of it.
No need for sorrow, I'm fine, seriously. It's just that from time to time, the small things will get to me. Every once in a while something will occur and I'll think about how much I miss that lady. She and I were very much alike and in the later years of her long life we started to bond.
I just ask all of you lovely people in my life to bear with me, especially if I seem distant. There's probably just something else on my mind. Give me a second to gather myself and we'll be good. No big like I said, I'm not depressed or harboring this intense feelings somewhere. Simply put I miss the grey-eyed red-haired lady I spent so many of my youthful summers with. Haha she makes me want to have a child just so I can see what genes he/she would inherit inside and out. If you think I'm blunt and straight-forward you should've seen my grandma she'd make even me gasp.
<3
No need for sorrow, I'm fine, seriously. It's just that from time to time, the small things will get to me. Every once in a while something will occur and I'll think about how much I miss that lady. She and I were very much alike and in the later years of her long life we started to bond.
I just ask all of you lovely people in my life to bear with me, especially if I seem distant. There's probably just something else on my mind. Give me a second to gather myself and we'll be good. No big like I said, I'm not depressed or harboring this intense feelings somewhere. Simply put I miss the grey-eyed red-haired lady I spent so many of my youthful summers with. Haha she makes me want to have a child just so I can see what genes he/she would inherit inside and out. If you think I'm blunt and straight-forward you should've seen my grandma she'd make even me gasp.
<3
Friday, December 5
Wednesday, December 3
Tuesday, December 2
Whoa
Look at that big ass type. Yeah I don't know either. I was clicking around doing my job making things look pretty next thing I know I'm changing my blog layout, go figure. I updated my wishlist eventhough I just did one in October. This one is completely complete as of December 1st. But I'm sure I forgot millions of things and as my friends (to the friends that read this and not the innocent bystanders) I know you will get me things I never even knew I wanted. Kinda how that thing works. I also started doing my shopping for the lot of you. Saturday I'm gonna go to town and just knock everything out there are only 2 people I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to get. I'll figure it out and make it count.
By the way, I have the most realistic dreams sometimes. Guess that comes with the vivid imagination...
By the way, I have the most realistic dreams sometimes. Guess that comes with the vivid imagination...
Monday, December 1
Sunday, November 30
Not a good look
When your friend turns at you and looks with the deepest sincerity and says "fuck your life." Damn... It's all I know so it's what I live. Everything happens for a reason, yanno. Might not make sense or go as you'd wish but it happens and we gotta deal with it. I'm a pro at rolling with the punches. It also helps when good things occur, cause when its good it's usually super super good.
Tuesday, November 25
Hi I'm Monique
Massively updated my myspace profile. I have this ridiculous need to update my life, not really sure why I just wish I could clean my room as easily.
One thing I'll never get is why people care so much about what other people are doing? Why does it matter where I am, who I'm with, or how I got there? Does my existence threaten you? I wish one of you would just explain it to me cause I'm all kinds of lost. If I'm hanging out somewhere I'm obviously doing me, you should do the same. I guess I should just be glad that I'm confident enough in my own train wreck of a life to not need to feed my ego off of someone else's misfortunes. I mean in all honesty half the time I don't even notice people. That's what we call being in your element.
One request I do have is, if you're going to talk shit about me, use the facts. There's so much accessible information that could probably damage my reputation (or lack there of) that no one needs to assume anything or try to draw conclusions.
I also don't get how someone can judge who deserves what. I personally say the more the merrier, legit. Also isn't it the band's call who they put on their guest list or who they bring inside? If you don't work for the band, management or their label you don't get a say. I mean feel free to tell anyone and everyone who will listen, not to associate with me. But when I've done nothing to prove your words true, I doubt they will be more than just useless banter. Give it up!
I miss Vegas, at least those kids had a legit reason to hate me.
One thing I'll never get is why people care so much about what other people are doing? Why does it matter where I am, who I'm with, or how I got there? Does my existence threaten you? I wish one of you would just explain it to me cause I'm all kinds of lost. If I'm hanging out somewhere I'm obviously doing me, you should do the same. I guess I should just be glad that I'm confident enough in my own train wreck of a life to not need to feed my ego off of someone else's misfortunes. I mean in all honesty half the time I don't even notice people. That's what we call being in your element.
One request I do have is, if you're going to talk shit about me, use the facts. There's so much accessible information that could probably damage my reputation (or lack there of) that no one needs to assume anything or try to draw conclusions.
I also don't get how someone can judge who deserves what. I personally say the more the merrier, legit. Also isn't it the band's call who they put on their guest list or who they bring inside? If you don't work for the band, management or their label you don't get a say. I mean feel free to tell anyone and everyone who will listen, not to associate with me. But when I've done nothing to prove your words true, I doubt they will be more than just useless banter. Give it up!
I miss Vegas, at least those kids had a legit reason to hate me.
The stars give really good advice sometimes
It can be challenging to manage your powerful emotions now that the Moon is back in your sign. Fortunately, you have the ability today to transform a difficult feeling into an inspirational thought. Sharing your hopes for the future can be motivating to others and can ultimately make you feel more positive about yourself.I'm one of the most positive, genuine people I know so maybe I can motivate myself by motivating others. I mean things are already looking up this week, no impromptu car troubles and I'm off Thursday & Friday. Yay happiness!
Monday, November 24
I rarely ever do this
I've found myself wandering a lot, looking for answers to unasked questions. Not the most useful thing in the world. This past week has been straight up ridiculous, so I decided I'm actually going to recap it instead of my usual cryptic banter. Banter, I've been saying that word a lot.
I saw my favorite band twice and I couldn't be happier. There's something about The Academy Is... that makes everything right. I guess that's what happens when you're a megafan. Every time I looked up at that stage my smile would be bigger and what's better than sharing such an experience with some of your closest friends. Philadelphia was so freakin empty it was a little disheartening because I think TAI has paid enough dues that they shouldn't still be the band in my pocket.
Entered Electric Factory way later than I intended but I think that happens everytime I frequent that venue, did get free parking which is always a win. First person I see when entering the door is Andrew. Haven't seen him since August which is hella long when I would see him multiple times a month. Was not expecting him to leap over the merch table, haha. Love that kid. Got to chat it up for a bit, visited Erica & Fiona upstairs. Talked about Hey Monday since I missed them, one day I'll check em out live. Danced around and got stares because obviously people don't dance to music in 2008. Christine and I just never got the message. The rest of that night is a blur, sick ass light show and breath taking preformance. After the show hung out in the rain talked about the dying population of red heads then watched some people til they creeped me out too much. Massive wave of sleepiness hit me and I sped my orange baby back south.
Friday was rediculous after much waiting, a little nap I finally made it to Fells Point to celebrate Sara being legal. Lots of free shots and drinks, good times all around. Met some fun people and decided we need to explore Baltimore more and find other fun bars to spend our weekends in. Still can't believe she's legit now. Come on Christine!!
Saturday I went shopping, fell in love with these jeans and even more so because I needed a smaller size. Yay starvation! I need to get back in the flow of working out, my brain needs the clarity. Sunday went to see my babies play acoustic and it reminded me of 05. They looked so happy and I was glad that fans came and new faces stayed around. I have a feeling 09 will be a good year for them. Fingers crossed.
Monday!!! AKA Day two of the bogus journey. Didn't see My Favorite Highway but enjoyed the longer than ever drive to DC. According to William, they were really good and look at that they are now signed to a major label. Well shit! Anywho finally get there head over to Will Call so I can get my tickets. As I'm about to go inside I hear "MONIQUE!!!!!!" not really sure where it comes from I see sketch ass bro all kinds of bundled up, squint and realize it's Andrew. Big hugs and then I get stoked cause I remember 930 does all the merch which means major hangs. Good times dancing around. There was some sketchy stalker-like activity going on. I wish I could go places and enjoy a show without being lurked out in the corners, seriously? My life not that glorious trust me, neither is my friends. Alexa and Christine were somewhere, I watched TAI's set. Almost melted when William pulled out the acoustic and played A NEW SONG!!! egads. Show ended talked to some kids, one girl was a bit too sassy with me. Waiting for D to count and hung with Dyana for a bit. Chilled downstairs to get warmed, missed William by 2 secs then went outside to join my froze friends. So glad I didn't work that show. Fun times after the show, glad that Michelle got her car back. Didn't get to see one of my favorite people to see on tour but did get some awesome looks. Thank you fans for the amazing cupcakes, didn't mean to get a chocolate one but it was still delicious. Lots of stories being told as we caught up on the last 3 months of our lives. Finally said goodbye, eventually got home then had to deal with car issues. Not fun, especially when people aren't cooperating. Glad that nothing was wrong and everything got taken care of, not glad for literally getting minutes of sleep.
Tuesday I was absolutely miserable at work, could barely stay awake and as soon as I got home I passed out for a little more than 12 hours. Much needed rest.
Woke up dumb early on Wednesday due to sleeping the previous day away, Alexa was also awake since she slept almost as much as I did Tuesday night. She kept me company most of the morning. Hilarious twitter conversations once Christine & Zack woke up. Then wham! I realized it was the 19th. November 19th. Wednesday November 19 2008. Well shit, never thought it would exist in the flesh. Put my game face on, prepared myself for a loooong day and headed to work. Work flew by, hopped in my car slid over to Sonar. Saw a couple familar faces but had business to take care of so didn't leave the car. Did however donate my badass parking spot to Frenchy French then headed up 83. Phone finally started working again, apparently towers were down all over Baltimore so I just needed to get out of that area.
I got to Chameleon Club so freaking late, sorry again Alexa. I did however finally get to see DGD and they were nuts. Next time they come to Baltimore, I'll def be there. Next up was Senses Fail so I was in heaven. 2nd favorite band, uh yes please! Played a good variety of songs and I heard basically everything I wanted to hear. Headed out to the car to get dan's gift, waited around for what seemed like forever. Chatted to the three I wanted to see before I left. Haha even got a request that I didn't get a chance to fulfill, sorry bro. Might've been for the better since we're not 100% sure if I'd get slapped in the face or not. Wanted to stay and catch up at the bar but decided to go back to my own city.
Fastest trip home ever. Left at 10:40 arrived at 11:45. For the record, Lancaster to Baltimore should take an hour 40. Haha reminded me of driving to Pittsburgh, oh man Pittsburgh... Anywho get there and there's still a good amount of kids around. See some familar faces who are surprised to see me, I explained I stopped by to say hey to everyone on my way home. They asked if I saw a friend I didn't even think they knew I knew then remembered DC did happen. The more people I ran into the more I wish I went to the show. It's not often these kids are legit in my city. Maybe it'll become a regular stop on future tours. HTL filled me in on all kinds of things that I had no recollection on. Note to self, what happens in Vegas is better when you can remember. Haha Kyle also filled me in on a few other things. That was a good night afterall. Ran into Christine and Zack as I traveled around Saratoga street. Ended up inside Sonar where I saw even more people. Definitely my favorite kids to hang out with, hands down. Many many many shots were taken. I think we stopped making toasts and just kinda looked all around raised glasses and drank. Throughout the night more people ended up showing up and more shots were taken. I would've been better off with a glass of vodka at one point.
"It's funny cause it's true" I just kept thinking that, watching the nonsense take place. I really wish more people were that honest in my life. Reason number a million why I love that kid. Just when I thought I had everything figured out another turn of events would come about. I legitamently felt bad for not going to the show, apparently no one else cared cause I showed up eventually. Guess that's friendship. I mean it's not like I deserved to be at that show anyway... 4am bus calls mean very little sleep for Monique, but I wouldn't trade that night in for the world. Spring needs to get here ASAP, starting to miss them already. Maybe I'll plop in for one more Sassynight before it ends.
Heavily considered going to NJ on Thursday but instead found myself at Recher. ETID are so freaking good, better than what I was expecting and The Bronx are always a treat. The weekend was full of hang outs with friends and intimate parties. Wasn't feeling quite like myself so didn't want to be out and about full party mode. It was quite uplifting to see my friend and his new room. It's like we're grown ups or something. Haha. Miss that kid more and more each tour. Ended the weekend with a bra fitting, Tim Gunn would be proud. Not stoked to buy all new bras, but I'm sure the fellas will be more than thrilled to know the size, me not so much.
All in all it's been a silly month full of surprises and smiles. A little heartache and a lot of eye-opening. Wonder what else is left in these cards. I do know that I need to get on the ball cause if what I was told Wednesday is true, I don't have much time left!
I saw my favorite band twice and I couldn't be happier. There's something about The Academy Is... that makes everything right. I guess that's what happens when you're a megafan. Every time I looked up at that stage my smile would be bigger and what's better than sharing such an experience with some of your closest friends. Philadelphia was so freakin empty it was a little disheartening because I think TAI has paid enough dues that they shouldn't still be the band in my pocket.
Entered Electric Factory way later than I intended but I think that happens everytime I frequent that venue, did get free parking which is always a win. First person I see when entering the door is Andrew. Haven't seen him since August which is hella long when I would see him multiple times a month. Was not expecting him to leap over the merch table, haha. Love that kid. Got to chat it up for a bit, visited Erica & Fiona upstairs. Talked about Hey Monday since I missed them, one day I'll check em out live. Danced around and got stares because obviously people don't dance to music in 2008. Christine and I just never got the message. The rest of that night is a blur, sick ass light show and breath taking preformance. After the show hung out in the rain talked about the dying population of red heads then watched some people til they creeped me out too much. Massive wave of sleepiness hit me and I sped my orange baby back south.
Friday was rediculous after much waiting, a little nap I finally made it to Fells Point to celebrate Sara being legal. Lots of free shots and drinks, good times all around. Met some fun people and decided we need to explore Baltimore more and find other fun bars to spend our weekends in. Still can't believe she's legit now. Come on Christine!!
Saturday I went shopping, fell in love with these jeans and even more so because I needed a smaller size. Yay starvation! I need to get back in the flow of working out, my brain needs the clarity. Sunday went to see my babies play acoustic and it reminded me of 05. They looked so happy and I was glad that fans came and new faces stayed around. I have a feeling 09 will be a good year for them. Fingers crossed.
Monday!!! AKA Day two of the bogus journey. Didn't see My Favorite Highway but enjoyed the longer than ever drive to DC. According to William, they were really good and look at that they are now signed to a major label. Well shit! Anywho finally get there head over to Will Call so I can get my tickets. As I'm about to go inside I hear "MONIQUE!!!!!!" not really sure where it comes from I see sketch ass bro all kinds of bundled up, squint and realize it's Andrew. Big hugs and then I get stoked cause I remember 930 does all the merch which means major hangs. Good times dancing around. There was some sketchy stalker-like activity going on. I wish I could go places and enjoy a show without being lurked out in the corners, seriously? My life not that glorious trust me, neither is my friends. Alexa and Christine were somewhere, I watched TAI's set. Almost melted when William pulled out the acoustic and played A NEW SONG!!! egads. Show ended talked to some kids, one girl was a bit too sassy with me. Waiting for D to count and hung with Dyana for a bit. Chilled downstairs to get warmed, missed William by 2 secs then went outside to join my froze friends. So glad I didn't work that show. Fun times after the show, glad that Michelle got her car back. Didn't get to see one of my favorite people to see on tour but did get some awesome looks. Thank you fans for the amazing cupcakes, didn't mean to get a chocolate one but it was still delicious. Lots of stories being told as we caught up on the last 3 months of our lives. Finally said goodbye, eventually got home then had to deal with car issues. Not fun, especially when people aren't cooperating. Glad that nothing was wrong and everything got taken care of, not glad for literally getting minutes of sleep.
Tuesday I was absolutely miserable at work, could barely stay awake and as soon as I got home I passed out for a little more than 12 hours. Much needed rest.
Woke up dumb early on Wednesday due to sleeping the previous day away, Alexa was also awake since she slept almost as much as I did Tuesday night. She kept me company most of the morning. Hilarious twitter conversations once Christine & Zack woke up. Then wham! I realized it was the 19th. November 19th. Wednesday November 19 2008. Well shit, never thought it would exist in the flesh. Put my game face on, prepared myself for a loooong day and headed to work. Work flew by, hopped in my car slid over to Sonar. Saw a couple familar faces but had business to take care of so didn't leave the car. Did however donate my badass parking spot to Frenchy French then headed up 83. Phone finally started working again, apparently towers were down all over Baltimore so I just needed to get out of that area.
I got to Chameleon Club so freaking late, sorry again Alexa. I did however finally get to see DGD and they were nuts. Next time they come to Baltimore, I'll def be there. Next up was Senses Fail so I was in heaven. 2nd favorite band, uh yes please! Played a good variety of songs and I heard basically everything I wanted to hear. Headed out to the car to get dan's gift, waited around for what seemed like forever. Chatted to the three I wanted to see before I left. Haha even got a request that I didn't get a chance to fulfill, sorry bro. Might've been for the better since we're not 100% sure if I'd get slapped in the face or not. Wanted to stay and catch up at the bar but decided to go back to my own city.
Fastest trip home ever. Left at 10:40 arrived at 11:45. For the record, Lancaster to Baltimore should take an hour 40. Haha reminded me of driving to Pittsburgh, oh man Pittsburgh... Anywho get there and there's still a good amount of kids around. See some familar faces who are surprised to see me, I explained I stopped by to say hey to everyone on my way home. They asked if I saw a friend I didn't even think they knew I knew then remembered DC did happen. The more people I ran into the more I wish I went to the show. It's not often these kids are legit in my city. Maybe it'll become a regular stop on future tours. HTL filled me in on all kinds of things that I had no recollection on. Note to self, what happens in Vegas is better when you can remember. Haha Kyle also filled me in on a few other things. That was a good night afterall. Ran into Christine and Zack as I traveled around Saratoga street. Ended up inside Sonar where I saw even more people. Definitely my favorite kids to hang out with, hands down. Many many many shots were taken. I think we stopped making toasts and just kinda looked all around raised glasses and drank. Throughout the night more people ended up showing up and more shots were taken. I would've been better off with a glass of vodka at one point.
"It's funny cause it's true" I just kept thinking that, watching the nonsense take place. I really wish more people were that honest in my life. Reason number a million why I love that kid. Just when I thought I had everything figured out another turn of events would come about. I legitamently felt bad for not going to the show, apparently no one else cared cause I showed up eventually. Guess that's friendship. I mean it's not like I deserved to be at that show anyway... 4am bus calls mean very little sleep for Monique, but I wouldn't trade that night in for the world. Spring needs to get here ASAP, starting to miss them already. Maybe I'll plop in for one more Sassynight before it ends.
Heavily considered going to NJ on Thursday but instead found myself at Recher. ETID are so freaking good, better than what I was expecting and The Bronx are always a treat. The weekend was full of hang outs with friends and intimate parties. Wasn't feeling quite like myself so didn't want to be out and about full party mode. It was quite uplifting to see my friend and his new room. It's like we're grown ups or something. Haha. Miss that kid more and more each tour. Ended the weekend with a bra fitting, Tim Gunn would be proud. Not stoked to buy all new bras, but I'm sure the fellas will be more than thrilled to know the size, me not so much.
All in all it's been a silly month full of surprises and smiles. A little heartache and a lot of eye-opening. Wonder what else is left in these cards. I do know that I need to get on the ball cause if what I was told Wednesday is true, I don't have much time left!
Friday, November 21
You're an idiot
I just legit read my blog for the first time ever. What kind of people are you? Haha I could barely read it and it's about my life. Sorry I'm kinda out there sometimes and a little more than emo when I actually sit down and think. Sorry for even providing such content. But thanks for reading commenting and sharing with friends.
With that being said, continue lurking...
Overrated boys and attention starved girls
Remember that one time when everything was going right, but somehow someway at the very last turn of events things went so wrong? Yeah that's a bummer but I have to keep believing that everything happens for a reason. And that what will be will be. It is good to know that I'm not crazy and imagining things. Also equally good to know that despite the environment and circumstances I can still hold my own. A lot of truth was spoken but so much still left to be said. In retrospect more should have been put out on the table but maybe that just means this journey is yet to be finished.
To feel used, to feel lust, to feel wanted for once
To know there's somebody else who's dying to feel anything
To know there's somebody else who's dying to feel anything
Tuesday, November 18
Am I the only one that remembers
So in May the very stylish Rachel Ray was accused for being a terrorist. True Story... Now everybody and their momma are rockin Keffiyeh scarves. I think someone owes Rachel an apology... I think it was a good look in the Spring, now it's become this staple of "if I wear this I must be posh" No. No wearing a damn scarf doesn't make people say wow look at you. There is more to fashion and style then to follow a trend. Reminds me of an episode of Doug... For the record, same goes for vests. I should become a stylist or a buyer.
PS: I'm a fan of the direction my blog is taking as of late. Oh the media!
PS: I'm a fan of the direction my blog is taking as of late. Oh the media!
Friday, November 14
Thursday, November 13
Wednesday, November 12
I have to have this!!
I don't even know why, but when I was in Best Buy last night with Rae I saw this amazing product and since then I have been craving it. I don't need a photo printer for my phone, I never print pictures nor do I take many with my phone. But I'm thinking how fun would it be to run around the city snapping pictures and print them right then and there. I've always had a thing for Polaroid cameras and was super sad when they decided to stop making the film. You may not know this but my father has collected cameras throughout the years.
Man I could go to a show and take dumb candid shots and then just hand them out. That's better than waiting til you get home to post it on the myspace. Ahhhhh decided, I must own this printer. I wish I wasn't such an electronics addict.
Sidenote I bought The Price is Right for Wii last night, can't wait to "Come on down!" after work. =) One more reason to have a Wii Party!
Man I could go to a show and take dumb candid shots and then just hand them out. That's better than waiting til you get home to post it on the myspace. Ahhhhh decided, I must own this printer. I wish I wasn't such an electronics addict.
Sidenote I bought The Price is Right for Wii last night, can't wait to "Come on down!" after work. =) One more reason to have a Wii Party!
Tuesday, November 11
Definitely not off on Veteran's Day
So tired, so so so tired. I don't know if this is correct but I'm quite sure that after sleeping you shouldn't wake up and wish to sleep more. I can't remember the last time I felt well rested. Even when I try to get more rest, and plan things out. Other shit pops up. I'm losing track of my days and even weeks. Just a mindless empty shell going from one place to another.
Saturday I didn't leave my house and it was such a great day, I need more of those. It would've been even better if I replaced the cleaning and laundry with reading and movies, but it was good nonetheless. Ideally I want a day where everything I do is for my mental wellness. granted cleaning clears my head but I don't want any physical labor or stresses. Just chill, calm, relaxation.
Just thinking about it makes me smile.
I'm excited for Wednesday, it's the first day on my calendar in a while that I plan to do nothing aside from going to work. The more I think about it the more I may cancel plans on Saturday & Sunday to get more cleaning done. Maybe even play a video game or sleep. It's a bummer cause those were two days I actually wanted to do what I planned, but c'est la vie! I will always cut from myself before others. One day...
I wish people weren't so selfish sometimes, if you say you're a friend then why can't people depend on you? Dumb dumb dumb. I hope to never treat my friends the way I've seen them treated. Even if it kills me!
Saturday I didn't leave my house and it was such a great day, I need more of those. It would've been even better if I replaced the cleaning and laundry with reading and movies, but it was good nonetheless. Ideally I want a day where everything I do is for my mental wellness. granted cleaning clears my head but I don't want any physical labor or stresses. Just chill, calm, relaxation.
Just thinking about it makes me smile.
I'm excited for Wednesday, it's the first day on my calendar in a while that I plan to do nothing aside from going to work. The more I think about it the more I may cancel plans on Saturday & Sunday to get more cleaning done. Maybe even play a video game or sleep. It's a bummer cause those were two days I actually wanted to do what I planned, but c'est la vie! I will always cut from myself before others. One day...
I wish people weren't so selfish sometimes, if you say you're a friend then why can't people depend on you? Dumb dumb dumb. I hope to never treat my friends the way I've seen them treated. Even if it kills me!
Monday, November 10
Friday, November 7
Not a second to waste
If I am a clock
Then your are the time
I'm patiently waiting
When you're out of line
And I'll be the question
If you'll be the answer
...
I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite off
In my heart
It's occupied
And now's not the time
The time
Then your are the time
I'm patiently waiting
When you're out of line
And I'll be the question
If you'll be the answer
...
I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite off
In my heart
It's occupied
And now's not the time
The time
Thursday, November 6
I think we have an emergency
Just because the store puts it together, doesn't mean its a good look. these all work as separates, together you're a twister board. And if you're clan of friends all march down the street looking like Hot Topic threw up some paint slatters on you, get your money back.
yup, still holds true
Realizations are a bitch. I always say it but it never gets easier to deal with. I don't know what sucks more, knowing that you associate with shitty people or knowing that in a blink of an eye you'd still bend over backwards to help them in a bind? Sometimes I wish I was a bitch or at least heartless. It'd be so much easier to cut my losses and move on if I didn't care. Why am I the one to always get burned? The nice one, the good one, the one person you should treat better than others for the simple fact I'm one of the few that would wire you money to make sure you made it home safely. Not only that I'd give up sleep and fun to be there in your time of need. I keep asking myself why and the answer is simply, I do these things cause I'd want someone to return the favor. I guess somewhere in my brain the synapses aren't lining up and I can't register that shit isn't happening. What I'm really to do for others, won't be reciprocated. I'm giving 100% and only getting 35. Don't get my wrong, I have a few gems in my life that in all honesty give me the hope that the world can be better but even then sometimes they burn me just as so. The closer they are the worst it hurts, why do I live with such pain? Why can't people see what they are doing to me? Why am I asking questions that have no answers? Why do I care so fucking much?
bleh
So much built up passion and anger, not good for the heart. I already don't sleep I don't need to harbor any resentment, I'd cut you if I could. I am however very thankful for everyone that gave up their time/money/sleep/ect ect to insure that I enjoyed my birthday. It brings me to tears just thinking of your generosity. Love, love love. I feel it.
With that being said, dear assholes that I call some of my best friends. I had a birthday a week ago, thanks for not calling/texting or sending me the message just to say happy birthday. With that being said I also made it to Vegas and made it back safely. I know you were so concerned... It think it's really awesome how you couldn't drive an extra 10 minutes just to grace me with your presence. No worries, just give me some bullshit excuse; I'll smile and say "its whatever" and we'll go back to being the best of bests. Cause its what I do...
THANKS!
bleh
So much built up passion and anger, not good for the heart. I already don't sleep I don't need to harbor any resentment, I'd cut you if I could. I am however very thankful for everyone that gave up their time/money/sleep/ect ect to insure that I enjoyed my birthday. It brings me to tears just thinking of your generosity. Love, love love. I feel it.
With that being said, dear assholes that I call some of my best friends. I had a birthday a week ago, thanks for not calling/texting or sending me the message just to say happy birthday. With that being said I also made it to Vegas and made it back safely. I know you were so concerned... It think it's really awesome how you couldn't drive an extra 10 minutes just to grace me with your presence. No worries, just give me some bullshit excuse; I'll smile and say "its whatever" and we'll go back to being the best of bests. Cause its what I do...
THANKS!
Wednesday, November 5
You're killing me, I'm killing myself
Realized I was passing through
From the moment I saw you
I was hypnotized
Couldn't wait to get you alone
So I could walk with you
So I could talk with you, oh
From the moment I saw you
I was hypnotized
Couldn't wait to get you alone
So I could walk with you
So I could talk with you, oh
Tuesday, November 4
You can vote however you like
Obama on the left, McCain on the right; We can talk politics all night and you can vote however you like
Thursday, October 30
Ra Ra Birthday
So my birthday is coming up. So excited to go to Vegas and to celebrate with my friends throughout the month. I know a few of you will be scrambling trying to figure out what to get me as a gift, you don't have to get me anything. Just wish me a happy birthday! Seriously, I'm not needy or selfish. I'd rather the people I care about spend some time with me than spend any amount of money.
However, I know that this isn't going to fly with some of you so I've made yet another wishlist. I'm not a fan of making these, so I hope you appreciate it...
First and foremost, a link to everything I've posted in my blog that I wanted, the Christmas wishlist from last year is an excellent start as it's still up to date and very relevant.
Just as a heads up as far as sizes go I wear a Large in shirts unless its layerable and goes on the bottom then get me an XL so it will actually show. Good rule of thumb you know what I look like, hold it up and see if everything is going to fit where it's supposed to. For shoes I wear a 10 in womens, a 9 in mens, and an 8 in Chucks. If buying Chucks make sure it says 8 on the bottom, and not 6. I trust all of you to make good choices, you know my style. NO SKULLS! Please and Thank you!
Clothing:
However, I know that this isn't going to fly with some of you so I've made yet another wishlist. I'm not a fan of making these, so I hope you appreciate it...
First and foremost, a link to everything I've posted in my blog that I wanted, the Christmas wishlist from last year is an excellent start as it's still up to date and very relevant.
Just as a heads up as far as sizes go I wear a Large in shirts unless its layerable and goes on the bottom then get me an XL so it will actually show. Good rule of thumb you know what I look like, hold it up and see if everything is going to fit where it's supposed to. For shoes I wear a 10 in womens, a 9 in mens, and an 8 in Chucks. If buying Chucks make sure it says 8 on the bottom, and not 6. I trust all of you to make good choices, you know my style. NO SKULLS! Please and Thank you!
Clothing:
- I have a PacSun Wishlist available via email
- funky socks
- winter hats & convertible gloves
- fingerless gloves and arm bands
- neck ties
- Trench Coat
- Blazer
- Fierce shoes
- tops with hoods
- v-necks
- Snakes & Suits
- GK Hoodie
- Funky Sneakers
- Alt Press shirt
- a new Volcom purse
- Rad Digital Watch
- Paul Frank
- How
- Communication Arts
- An upbeat funky cookbook
- 100 Words to Make You Sound Smart
- American Fashion
- Home Studio Home
- Fashion Wonderland Book
- Fashion Now 2
- The Best Dance Moves... Ever!
- Absolut
- Others can be found here
- Nifty Cordless Phone
- Zune 120
- Rob & Big
- Clone High
- Can't Hardly Wait
- Go
- Punchline - Just say Yes
- White Tie Affair - Walk This Way
- Just Surrender - Stronger Now
- Hollywood Undead - Hollywood Undead
- Pussycat Dolls - Doll Domination
- Story of the Year - The Black Swan
- Old Navy
- Delia's
- Ticketmaster
- Panda Stuff
- Bamboozle 08 Poster
- Ocean Pacific Perfume
- cool paintings/posters - I like abstract geometric shapes, girls with cool hair, and cityscapes Roy Lichtenstein is one of my favorite artists
Saturday, October 25
A Celebration of Me!
Party at my house October 25th!
Basement party with beer pong/flip cup on the deck for those who enjoy drinking games. Dance party will be taking place in the main room with music provided by my Zune, various MP3 players and some mix CDs. Feel free to bring some sounds, but I assure you if it sucks, it'll get cut off. You can wear your costume if you'd like but it's not a Halloween party its a Birthday Extravaganza. I also have another floor of my house available to hang, just most people never see it. There may be some Wii or Scene It action, not sure if my mom is cooking so feel free to call her up and ask.
Yes 60+, my house rolls deep and gets a little crazy. Bring a friend or whatever, but no one I'm not fond of or they will be asked to leave. No drama and no worries let's just some kids going dumb! New as of this year, if you plan to sleep in my basement clear the shit with me first. I can't have kids disrespecting my domain. Thanks!
Hit me up if you plan to go, need directions, or have a request/question!
I'm lazy so below is the invite list. If you talk to any of these people let them know please. Help me out and just spread the word to the masses.
Adam
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Fiona
Geo Geoff Greg Hannah James James Larson Jeff Jen Jen Cheney Jesse Joe JoJo Jon Stipek Jordan Josh Justin Kate Kevin Kim |
Laurel
Lindsay Abell Lisa Boh Bisa Lou Mandy Sin Mark Marquita Mary Mary Anne Matt Mikey Molly Morgan Nicki Pat Patrick Rae Rhiannon Ryan Ryan Ashley |
Sammi
Sara B Sara Emily Sara F Sarabay Sarahfax Stacy Michelle Stephani Stephanie Stephon Steve Douglas Steve Milaka Steve Zapp Tessa Tim Tom Uber Pat Will MC Zack |
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