In case you forgot...

...I only go to shows for scene points and to look cool. Don't get the story twisted and think I actually care about your band or supporting this scene.

I love people and feel sorry for anyone who truly believes that. Don't worry about why I'm here or what I do, if it concerns you then you shall know. There are bigger things than some girl enjoying herself night after night to lose sleep over, I'm just saying!

Always up or down, never down and out

No matter what I'll find a reason to wake up in the morning and keep smiling. It's what I do, I push through in hopes of better tomorrows. In hopes of not sounding ungrateful or selfish, I could really use a change of pace.
I truly wish I knew the lesson to be learned and the reason for all the trials and tribulations, I'd love to do better and be better if I only knew.

Love you babygirl

=D
Wow, I'm on top of the world. Feels like my guardian angels decided to reward me with one amazing time. Golly, I honestly forgot what pure joy felt like til right now. Normally I'd say long overdue but I think it was right on time, need to experience some shit lows to appreciate that great high. A super super high if you will.

Damn there's a smile on my face and a spark in my eye and a pain in my side. Must be happiness.

Seriously???

What the fuck did I ever do to you? Saw an amazing movie that brought a smile to my face with two of the best people someone could have in their life. To only be brought down, not gently but sucker punched in the gut and then curbed.
Someone for whatever reason decided to break my windshield wiper off my car. Yeah, really. Karma is a bitch and I know first hand cause of the fucked up things that have been happening in my life, so I know that fate is gonna catch up to all one day. Hopefully theirs is coming quicker than ours.

I really wish I had money to throw around cause this fucking sucks. Another $120 I don't have, plus labor...

If you come over, then together, willing we'll take over the world

Sing it Loud - No One Can Touch Us

love

An when I kiss you on the lips
You know that I mean it
An when I get your name tattooed to my neck
You better never forget
So dance with me, and never let me go
And I will always let you know
Girl, be always loving me
And I'll always be your G

Have you ever thought

what if? Not in the typical sense, but in the dream sense. If that even makes any bit of sense. Basically I've found myself wondering, had circumstances been different would things be any different. I find myself thinking no, even though it should be yes. Maybe I'm too much of a realist for my own good.

I like you better
In any weather
When you're not trying
It's so inviting
I don't deserve you
I can't afford you
Unless you're timeless

Could've...

...damn, damn, damn.

A conversation via text messages

Me: We need to hang soon, warped tour stick together let good things happen will be in full effect. We saw what happened when I'm not with you.
Mandy: haha yeahhhhh about that. warped lets stick together fullllll effect allll the way
Me: You know I'm down, lol. I gotta make out with somethin
Mandy:haha something? you mean someone lol haha
Me: hahahaha beggers can't be choosers. ;)
Mandy: lol I love you
Me: and I you

you think you know, but you have no idea

I heart my friends

Let's party

While many people are focused on their vacations, you are driven now to get your life and your career back in order. The Sun is in your 10th House of Public Responsibility, and it may be time to live up to your obligations -- to yourself and to loved ones. Instead of concentrating all your efforts today on getting ahead, leave some time to do something crazy, like having fun.

The stars want me to get crazy, I'm down...

I'm just a nobody who cares

Fall tours are slowly being announced and already they are ruining my brain. Do I go to Recher or The National? And if I go to The National do I just go back to Richmond the next day or should I just skip Richmond altogether and not even go to that EPIC tour? Better question who in their right mind would not go to the close ridic show to ride with me to the mediocre one? Well they would consider it meh while I'm peeing my pants trying to be in two places at once.
If this is any indication on how things are going to be, I'm hoping someone I love plays Vegas on my birthday and not Baltimore. I'll tell you right now, if need be I will drive hours for The Academy Is... tour. FTSK & Cobra not so much. Ahhhhhhh! What to do what to do?

By the by, I absolutely love UTIOG

I know already

I get dealt a bum hand quite frequently, occasionally I fold but normally I play it out and hope for the best. I don't really need constant reminders from the peanut gallery of how bad things are. I have no choice but to live my life and I like to highlight the positives and mask over the other shit. You saying, "wow I don't know how you do it, I wouldn't be able to..." or "man that sucks, you're always the one that gets screwed" doesn't help matters nor do I feel better. It just brings me back to reality and makes it a little harder to wake up it the morning. That is if I slept to begin with.

Exactly one month later

Hmm so either I'm really bad at asking questions, or homeboy is bad at answering them.

June:
Hey I should have your number for the next time you're in town and want to hang out.
Yadda Yadda yadda... I'm like super super single now.

July:
How have you been?
You look so sexy.

At least I know what "you look so sexy" means, however I don't know what one should say to that when caught completely off guard. I'll just say maybe dreams really do come true. We'll see.


ps: I refuse to be a resident of CB Nation or Lametown, USA. Thanx buddy!

Shady bitches

I'm at work, my bosses are in St. Louis. They left Monday night. Oh wait, our company week long vacation to St. Louis was canceled.

Yup!

Smiling

Just read this blog and it made me appreciate life's idiosyncrasies.
"I just called my neighbor and asked to borrow peanut butter. We met in the hallway. He had peanut butter. I had a knife and bread. I spreaded the peanut butter I needed onto the bread. He insisted I take more. I did. Then we made a few jokes about how crazy it was that we were actually doing that. Then I said “I’m gonna go blog that this happened.” The End."

By the by, yesterday was a good time even though I didn't watch my favorite band ever...

To-do list

These things help ease my mind. People wonder how I stay so calm cool and collective no matter what. Organizing lists would probably be at the top of the list. That and my traditional "don't care" attitude.

• Pack
• Work-Out
• Go to Movies
• Finish Hair
• Eat
• Find Clothes
• Prep Business Cards
• Figure out Cleveland
• Finish to-do list
  

I refuse to have a bad week

Yesterday sucked it was bad on top of suck smooshed down with oh damn. That will not be the case for any other day this week so all the effed up things need to go on vacay and come back Sunday. kthanksbye

On a lighter note, TAI's single comes out today so I'm going to pee my pants a little more and buy it when I get home, so I can cry myself to sleep. Shut up, cause you don't know!

Warped tour is literally tomorrow, I have no idea or plans but I'll tell you this, if anyone asks me to come tomorrow, I'm doing it. End of story, so when I'm in Philly and Dude says you coming tomorrow? And I say uh probably not, and they say you should come, Imma say you should make room. I'm a little over doing the responsible thing and ready to get wreckless. That sounds horrible, hopefully I don't end up saying "it was a good idea at the time", but in all honesty I know I will.

Oh and there are all sorts of randoms lurking me as of late weather its via myspace, twitter, this blog, or my portfolio. Pretty sketchtastic, but this is what it means to be an inhabitant of the twenty-first century. Sidenote, all those links have my name in them, am I becoming vain? Hmm...

WHERE IS VEGAS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

Reason #2 to smile

Can't get you out of my system

How do you move on and forget when you're constantly reminded? And it's not like "aww it's blue, that was our color" no it's I see your picture everywhere I turn or hear your voice or someone else is talking about you. It is exact 100% references to the very thing I wish wasn't the focus of my thoughts. Even when I turn everything off and hide myself away, you find a way to reach me. Don't know how much more I can take but at least I'll get some closure soon.

This is why I wake up at 646am

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