pause. rewind. monique!

2011-03-13T15:05:00.000-04:00

Working out is the one time in my life that everything I'm doing is for myself. No deadlines or duedates or directions. Just monique giving her all for herself.

2011-02-07T01:04:00.001-05:00

Starting today I promise to do everything in my power to be a better, happier person.

2011-02-02T20:32:00.003-05:00

I don't think fate understands that I don't want to learn a lesson just yet. Just let me do my thing and next time I'll slow down and do things the right way...

2011-02-02T20:32:00.001-05:00

I don't think fate understands that I don't want to learn a lesson just yet. Just let me do my thing and next time I'll slow down and do things the right way...

2011-01-15T23:35:00.001-05:00

It's nights like tonight that make wish I still had you. "you don't know what you got til it's gone"

2010-11-11T00:54:00.001-05:00

Why did i think having three jobs would be ok?

2010-11-06T22:56:00.001-04:00

I wonder if i could go on "til debt do us part" if i'm just one person.

2010-11-05T21:58:00.001-04:00

Why do i allow this? Why do you do this? Why? Why? Why?

2010-10-14T05:37:00.001-04:00

All progress is lost with the mention of your name. Things are forever the same and i'm tired of being the token in the game. It's time for things to change.

2010-09-19T02:49:00.001-04:00

I don't discriminate, I regulate every shade of that ass.

misery loves company

2010-09-06T23:56:00.001-04:00

glad you found someone to be salty with

2010-08-17T02:02:00.001-04:00

Not ready to face the songs we used to share. Why does it feel like I lost my self?

What's your dream car?

2010-06-29T01:54:00.001-04:00

For the longest time it was the Suzuki X-90 but now that I have my Fit I wouldn't trade it for the world!

what would you like to know this time?

What's your favorite season of the year?

2010-06-29T01:53:00.001-04:00

Autumn for sure. The weather is bipolar but i can wear layers typically everyday and the holiday season starts. Stores are all geared up for back to school. My birthday happens and of course the leaves change colors.

what would you like to know this time?

formspring.me

2010-03-09T11:50:00.001-05:00

I'm finally leaking this link... http://formspring.me/ohmonique

2009-12-21T00:12:00.001-05:00

Good to know that I'm not all talk and when push comes to shove I'd do anything in my power to help a friend. Classic case of actions speaking louder than words

TUMBLR

2009-11-30T11:05:00.001-05:00

I gotta tumblr
You should follow me
itsmonique.tumblr.com
I may or may not keep posting from my phone to here

2009-11-21T22:39:00.001-05:00

Totally putting my depression on the christmas list this year. If anyone deserves a gift it's that for always being around. Thanks!

all signs point yes

2009-11-16T11:15:00.003-05:00

Haven't done this in a while but look at this horoscope:
Monday, Nov 16th, 2009 -- Today's New Moon in your sign is like your birthday because the wishes you make now can really come true. But it's not about whimsically saying that you want this or that. It's about visualizing the year ahead and imagining the best possible outcome to the present situation. Then think about what you must do to manifest your fantasy. Finally, speak your intentions out loud. Creating a ritual helps more than you think, so try lighting a candle and blowing it out to get into the proper spirit.

Doesn't help that I may be about to have the most ridiculous, spontaneous, and senseless day of my life. I'm a level-headed girl that doesn't let things get to the best of me, but I also can't argue a valid point...

What's the point of being young if you can't be stupid?

2009-11-05T09:39:00.001-05:00

These post are always bitter. Today I'm conflicted & confused. Too bad there's really no one that lets me talk enough to think things through. Ugh, need a sign.

2009-10-17T02:02:00.001-04:00

How hard is it to contact someone? In this day and age, it's basically impossible for a friend to not be able to deliver information. At least, so I thought...

2009-09-28T22:15:00.001-04:00

It sucks most knowing that you can never be the person you used to be. One day I'll be over it, until then I'll figure something out. Fake it til you make it.

2009-09-20T19:00:00.001-04:00

I like, like you, like you...

2009-08-20T22:32:00.001-04:00

I've never felt more unsure about my life as I do right now. Help...

2009-08-17T01:11:00.001-04:00

I wish my body gave warnings before falling into a state of depression. Cancelling plans and hopefully enjoying some aspect of life. Bummed!

2009-08-11T19:40:00.001-04:00

Just when I think you've reached your limit, you find a new way of showing how delusional your self image is. Wow... Of everyone I know you need the most help.

2009-07-31T17:23:00.001-04:00

Why am I still falling for you after so much time has passed? The littlest thing and I can forget the months of headaches

2009-07-09T20:07:00.001-04:00

Now show me what you're working with, you dance your way from bed to bed and try not to make it so obvious. You always make it too obvious.

2009-07-08T12:51:00.001-04:00

True colors always shine bright, even when it's pure black. I refuse to be sucked into your black hole of an existance nor am I afraid to hit eject.

2009-07-04T19:21:00.001-04:00

So glad I don't let people phase me

I can't believe I didn't do Justin Long

2009-06-21T03:10:00.003-04:00

I have a kindergarden crush on Justin Long that just grows with every daytime and latenight interview. He's seriously what I invision when someone says "boyish charm." With that being said... the list (courtesy of iMDB). I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

Drag Me to Hell (2009) .... Clay Dalton
Still Waiting... (2009) (V) (uncredited) .... Dean
He's Just Not That Into You (2009) .... Alex
Patriotville (2009) .... Chase Revere
Zack and Miri Make a Porno (2008) .... Brandon St. Randy
Just Add Water (2008/I) .... Spoonie
Strange Wilderness (2008) .... Junior
Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story (2007) (uncredited) .... George Harrison
Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007) (voice) .... Alvin
Terra (2007) (voice) .... Senn
Live Free or Die Hard (2007) .... Matt Farrell
Idiocracy (2006) .... Doctor
Accepted (2006) .... Bartleby Gaines
The Break-Up (2006) .... Christopher
Dreamland (2006) .... Mookie
The Sasquatch Gang (2006) .... Zerk Wilder
Herbie Fully Loaded (2005) .... Kevin
Waiting... (2005) .... Dean
Robin's Big Date (2005) .... Robin
Wake Up, Ron Burgundy: The Lost Movie (2004) (V) .... Chris Harken
Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story (2004) .... Justin
Hair High (2004) (voice) .... Dwayne
Raising Genius (2004) .... Hal Nestor
Jeepers Creepers II (2003) .... Darry Jenner
Crossroads (2002/I) .... Henry
Jeepers Creepers (2001) .... Darry Jenner
Happy Campers (2001) .... Donald
Galaxy Quest (1999) .... Brandon

2009-06-11T16:12:00.001-04:00

It'd be so easy to lock myself away and drink until I no longer felt this hopelessness in my heart. Too bad I don't have health insurance...

Sometimes I wish I was artsy

2009-06-11T01:57:00.000-04:00

No pants has never been so fun

2009-06-10T00:56:00.000-04:00

2009-05-26T22:17:00.001-04:00

"What up T-shirt Girl???"
Classic how certain people can say the most meaningless shit and my day improves exponentially because of it. :)

SWEET BRAGZ!!!!!!

2009-05-15T13:05:00.002-04:00

I come right after Ashlee, I'm aok with this!!! PS bro only follows 50 cats.
Life is hella good!

boredom = survey

2009-05-15T02:57:00.003-04:00

What was the last thing someone threw at you?
themselves? haha oh wait money, yup

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
oh for sure

How was your day?
redic and eventful so overall good; so exhausted

Do you like anyone?
I like you like like you like you. Haha I don't think so maybe

Have you lost anyone you wish you would not have?
most def

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
hmm not a clue

Are you a happy person?
I'll say yes

What are you wearing?
Party Naked tank and no pants

What are you looking forward to?
Going on an interview of some sort

Is there something you want?
always, isn't that what drives us all?

Is there anything you'd like to say to anyone?
Sooooo many things to soooo many people I made a post a couple down with a small list. I would love to tell someone that they are one of my only life regrets and I have to deal with that

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
couple hours ago

Are you wearing clothes?
sure

Are you wearing socks?
not so much

When was the last time you cried?
it's been a while actually

Do you cry yourself to sleep every night?
i did for almost 2 months, that's ended finally

What's the initials of the last person you kissed?
I wish I knew, hahaha that sounds so bad

What was the last thing you drank?
sweet tea

What color is your camera?
neon green

Who was the last person you commented?
Fiona maybe could be Erica not too sure

Who was the last person you were in a car with 18 and under?
Is Karlynn under 18?

Have you ever flipped out in public? What about at a family gathering?
Oh for certain, I've kirked like no other not at family functions though

Do you listen to Paramore?
uh duh

Where was the last place you fell asleep, other then your bed?
kitchen table

Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?
mmmm not that one kid but sure have

Tell me about the shirt you are wearing?
black tank neon letters says Party Naked

Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
backseat windows up...

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I didn't even sleep at night to wake up in it

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
psh no

Have you fell asleep in someone's arms?
that's the best, I need to do that more

Where is your phone?
on my ear cause I'm using it

Do you have Verizon?
internet and land line

Do you think you would be able to handle being in the military?
not at all, i don't take direction very well

Who is your last text from?
myself

When is the next time you’ll kiss someone
probably tomorrow

What is the reason behind your Myspace song?
who doesn't know a dirrrty girl??

What is a fact about the last person you kissed?
bro is in a band like always

Would you rather have the ability to fly or the ability to read minds?
oooo i would totally abuse both of those, I don't think I should be allowed either actually

Have you ever trusted someone you wish you wouldn't have?
nope i don't trust people often

Name a site that you visit everyday:
careerbuilder

Another survey to pass the time

2009-05-12T16:27:00.002-04:00

What do you think about the last person you kissed?
He was actually solid kid, although I don't know jack about him. Maybe we'll cross paths again

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
That one boy I care far too much about for my own good

Did you sleep in past noon today?
Not so much

How many different colors are you wearing right now?
3

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
clarity or direction maybe even purpose

Do you have a lot of dreams for the future?
That's something that'll never change, at least I hope

Do you want someone back in your life?
Such a loaded question. I'm probably doing better without these people and I gained so much in their lost but you can't help yourself but to think hmm what if, yanno

Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past five days?
Sure did and I emotionally ruined myself like I always do; I'm such a girl

How is the weather right now?
So nice, the sun is out with a few clouds there's a breeze and the temp can't be anything over 70. I'd say ideal

Is anything annoying you right now?
What isn't, I'm so irritable right now it's insane

Does anyone call you babe?
Nope but close

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Attempted to clear my head, we all know how well that went

Is this year the best year of your life?
Wow no. Well maybe, it's hard to say. It's pretty freakin good all things considered but there's always room for improvement

Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment?
Multiples, why can't I just find someone already that it's ok for me to fall for

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
yup

Do you have nice eyes?
So I'm told

What are you doing besides this?
Talking to Stacy, she keeps me sane

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
I think I have a movie date with my dad

What's the first thing you did when you woke up?
sighed and rolled over

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
Eh, some of my friends aren't the best judges of character. A lot of times I'm a hard-headed determined idiot. So I'll just say not as much as I should.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Yup, I hold so much in and hide so much more

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Hell to the no, but I'm working with it the best I know how

Would you ever get a tattoo?
Probably not, committment...

Are you keeping a big secret right now?
Nope...nope not that I know of

What made you happy today?
Stacy reminding me that I'm not the only one that gets fucked over

Would you date someone twenty years older than you?
Doubtful, at this rate I don't think I could meet a guy 20 years older. I have enough trouble meeting one that's older than 20, haha

Are you close with your mother?
sure am, but I don't tell her as much as I should

Did you speak to your father today?
yup <3

Have you ever kissed anyone with a last name that starts with K or Z or T?
Hahahaha so many of you would love to know

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yeah and it wrecked me more than it did him, but he'll never know that

Are you listening to music right now?
Not in the least bit

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point and aren't around much anymore?
Sadly

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
helplessness, exhaustion, confusion, lonliness. I'm basically avoiding myself right now

Anything you would change about your life right now?
I think there's a lot to working at things and not taking the easy route so I'll keep on trucking but thanks for the offer

Trying

2009-04-28T07:41:00.002-04:00

I was getting better with this whole eating and sleeping to survive thing. Not so much. I just need circumstances to get better. Trying hard to keep positive...

CSWS

2009-04-20T22:10:00.002-04:00

Going a million miles a minute. It's so fast sound can't even keep up

Let's get it!

2009-04-20T17:26:00.002-04:00

I just set up my phone and email with the blog. Expect more posts comin at ya from all directions. And now Cleopatra is stuck in my head...

Bitch I'm shinin

2009-04-20T17:24:00.003-04:00

By looking like everyone else...

Hooba

2009-04-14T16:24:00.000-04:00

Survey says

2009-04-10T02:01:00.003-04:00

I haven't done one of these in a minute. I figure why myspace when you can blog?

10 things you want to say to 10 different people; no names:
1. You can do and be so much better than what you are. Stop settling and think before you leap!
2. I know how it is to get caught up in the moment, but why did you leave the very people who would do absolutely anything for you? Better yet, how can you look in the mirror knowing?
3. Why must I always be the first to start a relationship? I'm tired and throwing myself out there especially with the history we have. It's been a good ride and just when I think its dead and gone we find each other.
4. You mean more to me than you will ever truly realize. I can't believe we haven't been friends my entire life but now that you are in my life. Don't leave like the others did. I can't take that heartbreak and who will tell me I'm not crazy?
5. You're crazy and I love you for it. We don't talk/hang nearly as much as we should. But I know that if push comes to shove you're there for me and I you.
6. You and me that makes sense homie. Not sure how or why but we're the real deal. La la la and junk like that.
7. I don't know where you came from but thank you. So many memories in such a short amount of time. We're nothing alike and everything alike. And I wish that you had as much faith and confidence in yourself that you have in others. So much potential so much to offer the world. Just freakin do it already.
8. Sometimes I just want to grab you and shake you and say "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?" But I can't so I don't. Just cause I'm not always in sight doesn't mean you aren't forever in thought. There's so much I want to say and show but you're way too hardheaded for that. So I'll just keep doing what I'm doing and wait for when it's my turn to step in. Ugh you might cause some gray in my hair but I guess you're worth it.
9. Have you forgotten me cause I haven't forgotten you? Do you still search for me cause I no longer look but I do hope that we find each other. Just to see, what's in the now and if the choices we made were the right to live by. No one knows as much as you, I can still say that. But I doubt that's coming from your end.
10. Oh you. If there's one thing that you take from me and actually do. Stop over thinking and start living. You can't be scared all the time cause you'll wake up and be 40 and wonder where did your life go and you deserve so much more than that.

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. Everyday I strive to be a better Monique than what I was the day before
2. I'm constantly thinking but not always speaking
3. When people achieve their dreams I can't help but to cry
4. I honestly have no idea where I will be in 5 years and not really too concerned
5. I give more than I receive
6. I can't forget the mistakes I've made in the past no matter how big or small and worry that will be the end of me
7. I love life. Just the thought of it and I smile
8. Monique isn't afraid of making a fool of herself cause hey you only live once!
9. When I legit like someone I can't think or breathe and hide my face and grab my hair. It's adorable and foolish all at once.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Show me the real you
2. A child-like spark in your personality
3. Don't let me win especially not easily
4. Somehow show me that I'm different than any other girl without words
5. Vibe with me
6. Quote/sing something I love
7. Have a hidden depth that is only seen after really getting to know you
8. Accept me, good bad all of it

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. Should've/Could've
2. How long can I function like this?
3. The daily grind of the day
4. My friends/families lives
5. What is my ultimate plan?
6. Those few boys that drive me crazy
7. New plans and schemes

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. Give so much money freely
2. Let my stuff take over my life/room
3. Let go of his hand
4. Stop dancing
5. Buy things I didn't need just cause of the price
6. Let Bamboozle 08 and a lot of 2008 suck so much

Five Turn Offs:
1. Egos
2. Shadiness (there's a point where its no longer mysterious)
3. Trying too hard
4. Being a whore or being with whores
5. Not being real

Four Turn Ons:
1. Fucked up Hair
2. Creativity
3. Silliness
4. Style

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. 8-)
2. :-\
3. =p

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Live 100% debt-free
2. Leave the US boundaries

One Confession:
I don't always have the answers and a lot of times I'm making this up as I go along

Dunno

2009-04-06T16:53:00.001-04:00

I don't know what affects me more your ignorance, your superior attitude or your judging. Either way none are good or helpful. One day you'll realize that, I hope.

I just twoted all over the place

2009-04-05T04:31:00.000-04:00

Real friends would call you?

I love these ads

2009-04-02T15:13:00.000-04:00

Hot Topic has the best promo emails sometimes. Look at that "love"

Apparently this makes certain people think of me...

2009-04-02T13:33:00.001-04:00

Old School Cereal Commericals

2009-03-30T03:11:00.001-04:00

Temporarily out of cash

2009-03-26T02:28:00.001-04:00

Talk about nerve wracking. In a few weeks it will be 4 months since I had a job. As the days go on it becomes harder and harder to keep my head up. You start to get that attitude of "the phone didn't ring yesterday, probably won't ring tomorrow" but that's such a defeatist attitude. If I don't try then it will never ring. Something has to work out, I have faith. Just not as much as I'd like sometimes.
It also annoying that with unemployment I can only make so much weekly before it starts being taken out of my check. So I may bust my ass and grind out a dumb amount of freelance hours but at the end of the day I only make maybe 100 more than if I slept the days away. Sometimes I just say "why bother" but then I find the strength to continue. Cause, "ya never know..."
What bugs me most is the amount of money I have floating around. Several people have bothered money, or had me purchase something with intent to pay me back but I never see it. I guess these cats are all a different breed, maybe they've forgotten, maybe they lied to my face? The world may never know. What I do know is that far too many times in the past hmm year to two years I've been given empty promises. Maybe they need it more than I do? Maybe I deserve to be without. Doesn't help that daily I hear a words from my mother although I vowed to stop giving money in any shape or form to anyone anytime. If you want a ticket give me the cash or you buy them and I'll pay you. If ya want a ride better supply a fair amount for toll and gas. Going to dinner and you only have a card, split that check. It's the little things but they add up and this is the only way I can protect my pockets from further damages.
Full of hope, depression, confusion and determination. Hoping the goods outweigh the bad and I continue on to find bigger and better things. Or at least a thing. Not sure how much longer I can continue to tap out my savings and rob peter to pay paul. Simply not use to living like this, I never was the person to spend beyond my means purposely. Nor not be able to do whatever it was I wanted solely on cashflow. I work too hard and follow the rules too well to be in this perdictament. But then again, "everything happens for a reason"

Oh Hot Topic

2009-03-11T02:02:00.000-04:00

I'm scared for fashion

2009-03-09T17:45:00.002-04:00

My face is wet

2009-03-09T14:59:00.003-04:00

When I stop I cry, when I think I cry. I wish it wasn't like this. I wish these things didn't happen. I wish I got to say goodbye or at least see you more before. I wish writing this would help me feel better.
I know you loved me more than I could ever imagine and that helps and hurts all at the same time. So many memories, so many smiles. Who's going to help cut the strings now? How is he truly coping? What do we do now? When does it get better? How can I go through this all again?

Love

What to do what to do?

2009-02-26T01:52:00.002-05:00

How can something so wrong feel so right? Better yet, why is it wrong? Funny how I can no longer remember why things didn't work, funny how everything is new and improved without any modifications at all. What to do? Kill it? Revive it? Is it all just concocted in my head? Was it never anything at all? I don't know, I don't know I don't know. For once I don't know nor do I know how to find the answer. Driving me insane, but I can't dwell, gotta keep living. Face the challenges that are in my immediate, not the what ifs and the maybes. Now and only now.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! This is one fight that can't be masked by a scream. I'll resolve to wait it out and test the waters and just watch how it all unfolds. Yup. And now I wait...

She was a good look, for Wal-Mart

2009-02-26T01:49:00.003-05:00

BINGO!!!

Insensitive friends

2009-02-24T01:37:00.002-05:00

Iono

2009-02-11T03:28:00.000-05:00

My head

2009-02-05T23:35:00.002-05:00

Lyrics are stuck in my head and I just saw an incredible picture of a beautiful human being that made me smile beyond belief. Times are rough but life is good and full of opportunities and chances. Still breathing all that matters!

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Years later

2009-02-05T02:46:00.001-05:00

and I'm still allowing you to ruin me. How is this possible? One day I'll move on, until then I'm here waiting on nothing.

Vests!

2009-01-28T16:53:00.003-05:00

This screams shopping spree...

How?

2009-01-28T02:53:00.001-05:00

How does one get back on the horse and try again when all the horses are long gone? I mean if you're in the middle of the plains and you fall off but Flicka keeps running, you're fucked.

help.

One day I'll appreciate Almost Famous

2009-01-26T23:33:00.001-05:00

Breckin Meyer

2009-01-26T23:13:00.004-05:00

I posted about Jason Lee last week, also on my list of actors is the highly underrated Breckin Meyer. He's such a talented man and you've probably seen more of his movies than ya think! The list of movies courtesy of iMDB and as before I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

Corporate Affairs (2008) .... Ted Meyers
Blue State (2007) .... John Logue
Caffeine (2006/I) .... Dylan
Garfield: A Tail of Two Kitties (2006) .... Jon Arbuckle
Rebound (2005) .... Tim Fink
Herbie Fully Loaded (2005) .... Ray Peyton Jr.
Garfield (2004) .... Jon
Blast (2004) .... Jamal
Pinocchio (2002) (voice: English version) .... Pinocchio
Kate & Leopold (2001) .... Charlie McKay
Rat Race (2001) .... Nick Schaffer
Josie and the Pussycats (2001) (uncredited) .... Marco - Du Jour
Road Trip (2000) .... Josh Parker
Tail Lights Fade (1999) .... Cole
The Insider (1999) .... Sharon's Son
Go (1999) .... Tiny
54 (1998) .... Greg Randazzo
Can't Hardly Wait (1998) (uncredited) .... Walter - Lovebürger Lead Singer
Dancer, Texas Pop. 81 (1998) .... Keller Coleman
Touch (1997) .... Greg Czarnicki
Prefontaine (1997) .... Pat Tyson
Escape from L.A. (1996) .... Surfer
The Craft (1996) .... Mitt
Clueless (1995) .... Travis
Payback (1995) .... Jim's Son
Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare (1991) .... Spencer

Those who can't...

2009-01-22T23:41:00.002-05:00

Yanno that saying, those who can do and those who can't teach? I'm not really fond of it but I find myself living just that. Seems like everyone comes to me for relationship advice, the girl with commitment issues. I just want to be like, you do know I've been single since before the day I've met you right? I mean I guess shit ain't changed since 88 but I personally would want to discuss things with someone who has had a something a anything in this millennium. Damn I suck, well no. I guess not since people keep coming to me and it works. I should have been a sociology major, I study people quite well.

Maybe 09 will be my time to shine? Maybe.

My boy Jason Lee

2009-01-22T17:35:00.003-05:00

I have a goal to see all his movies (not feeling My Name is Earl and that also isn't a movie), I've been a fan of Jason for a while, he was an amazing skater HELLO 360 FLIP! Anywho here's the list of movies courtesy of iMDB. I've seen the green movies and own the reds.

Alvin and the Chipmunks (2007) .... Dave
Underdog (2007) (voice) .... Underdog
Monster House (2006) (voice) .... Bones
Clerks II (2006) .... Lance Dowds
Jack-Jack Attack (2005) (V) (voice) .... Buddy Pine / Syndrome
Drop Dead Sexy (2005) .... Frank
The Ballad of Jack and Rose (2005) .... Gray
The Incredibles (2004) (voice) .... Buddy Pine / Syndrome
Jersey Girl (2004) .... PR Exec #1
I Love Your Work (2003) .... Larry Hortense
Dreamcatcher (2003) .... Beaver
A Guy Thing (2003) .... Paul
Stealing Harvard (2002) .... John Plummer
Big Trouble (2002) .... Puggy
Vanilla Sky (2001) .... Brian Shelby
Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back (2001) .... Brodie Bruce / Banky Edwards
Heartbreakers (2001) .... Jack Withrowe
Almost Famous (2000) .... Jeff Bebe
Mumford (1999) .... Skip Skipperton
Dogma (1999) .... Azrael
Enemy of the State (1998) .... Zavitz
Cuisine américaine (1998) .... Loren Collins
Kissing a Fool (1998) .... Jay Murphy
A Better Place (1997) (as Dennis Pepper) .... Dennis Pepper
Chasing Amy (1997) .... Banky Edwards
Drawing Flies (1996) .... Donner
Mallrats (1995) .... Brodie
Mi vida loca (1993) .... Teenage Drug Customer

Ma vie

2009-01-21T15:54:00.003-05:00

In english: My life

Lately I've been bummed out to all get up. No drive, no motivation, no purpose. Not like I don't have things to do that I need and want to get done. I just can't get myself on the track to do them, hell I can't even bum a ride to the station...
Things are definitely looking up and each day I feel a little more ok, but deep down shit is off. Fortunately, I haven't let anything get in the way of my life.

Bleh blah, woe is me, enough is enough. Damn.

Lately I've been watching more DVDs than I can handle, lots of TV seasons! I updated my portfolio site moniquedidit.com; and for the first time in a while I legit liked the work I had done. Always a good sign. I'm stoked to start working on this new endevor, we'll see how it goes. Def need to put on my business hat for a minute and draw up a contract and estimates and such. The idea of charging someone $500 baffles me, seriously? The work I do is buyable?! No way...
I have resolutions and so far so good, I'll formally write them down sometime next month, you know me, committment issues.
I do fault myself for having the "today is the day" attitude. I should be much further along than I am and it kills me. I need to get my ass on top of shit. Golly, I suck.

As you can tell I'm not entirely here, I can't even keep my words & ideas together. TRAINWRECK!

I give up, peace out til I return =D

2008's Top 25 (according to MTV users)

2009-01-21T15:51:00.000-05:00

25. Pink - "So What"
24. Danity Kane - "Bad Girl"
23. Madonna - "Four Minutes"
22. Rihanna - "Don't Stop the Music"
21. Tokio Hotel - "Ready, Set, Go!"
20. Beyoncé - "If I Were a Boy"
19. Rihanna - "Disturbia"
18. Paramore - "Decode"
17. Katy Perry - "I Kissed a Girl"
16. Rihanna - "Take a Bow"
15. Pussycat Dolls - "When I Grow Up"
14. Usher - "Love in This Club"
13. Beyoncé - "Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It)"
12. Jonas Brothers - "When You Look Me in the Eyes"
11. Chris Brown - "With You"
10. Leona Lewis - "Bleeding Love"
9. Jonas Brothers - "Burnin Up"
8. Flo Rida - "Low"
7. Mariah Carey - "Touch My Body"
6. Britney Spears - "Piece of Me"
5. Danity Kane - "Damaged"
4. Chris Brown - "Forever"
3. Jordin Sparks (featuring Chris Brown) - "No Air"
2. Lil Wayne - "Lollipop"
1. Britney Spears - "Womanizer"

Get on the bus

2009-01-21T15:48:00.000-05:00

"I’m officially starting the “SHITBETTERGETAWESOMEQUICK” CAMPAIGN 09’. I’ve been in a cave for almost a month, waddling in my own self-pity."

I'm in 100% agreement and am slowly working on rallying the campaign trail!

I AM THE HINT

2009-01-21T12:26:00.000-05:00

My President

2009-01-20T12:05:00.000-05:00

My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too
My Money's Light Green And My Jordans Light Grey
And They Love To See White Now How Much You Tryna Pay
Lets Go!

Rosa Parks sat so Martin Luther could walk
Martin Luther walked so Barack Obama could run
Barack Obama ran so all the children could fly
So I’mma spread my wings
You could meet me in the sky

I hope to never feel these lyrics again

2009-01-19T12:53:00.001-05:00

I've been
happy
before
I know it
maybe
one day
I'll feel that way again
cause
pain and anger travels threw my veins
and nothing seems to
satisfy
As I feed upon the loneliness
Only one thing
Stops me this time

So, still wanna hook up?

2009-01-12T02:34:00.003-05:00

If you haven't seen Out Cold yet, check it out!

Also if anyone can find Extreme Ops, make me a copy. Please and thank you

What do I keep doing wrong?

2009-01-07T00:50:00.002-05:00

I wish I knew cause I if I did, believe you me I'd stop. I maybe be stubborn at times, but I'm not one to constantly go against the grain; especially just for shits and giggles. I'm at the point that I'm about to just stop fighting against the tide and let the current sweep me away to where ever it chooses to take me.

What's a girl got to do to catch a break?

Objectified

2009-01-05T21:53:00.002-05:00

I want to see this documentary! Made by the same guy who did Helvetica. Sorry sometimes my nerdy designer side shows. Speaking of which check out this tramp stamp:

Remember when I was super super happy?

2009-01-05T12:37:00.001-05:00

It's ok I don't either.

There's always tomorrow!!

Spears Rejected

2009-01-02T09:28:00.000-05:00

News Flash

2008-12-30T16:48:00.001-05:00

By now everyone should know about this. My thoughts are, how did he have enough time to get off the second shoe. And why wasn't someone walking the president away from that podium. USA get your shit together please!

A collection of small thoughts

2008-12-30T15:31:00.002-05:00

I haven't blogged lately, actually I haven't done much lately. For someone so busy, always moving, always going. I have zero accomplishments on the large scale of things, what's the purpose then? Hope? I honestly don't know and have lost direction. Not a downward spiral because that would at least have meaning, motion, direction, momentum and eventual end. I, me, I'm suspended in space, time, and color. No sign of going, no sign of life. Just existence.
Not like you'd notice, not like there's anything that can be done. Nope not a thing. This isn't depressing, at least it shouldn't be, just words with feelings, just ideas going mentioned. I wish in my heart of hearts I knew what it was I am supposed to do. Who I'm meant to be, where I'm supposed to go. Some small clue that says this way or that. I'm exhausted, and need this nothingness to end. Not sure if I can take much more. But I know I have no choice in the matter. Good thing making the best of things is my specialty.

Christmas has come and gone, I'm glad everyone so far has throughly enjoyed their gifts. I'm fond of bringing smiles to faces and giving to those that has blessed me with so much. You honestly have no idea just how bright you all have made my days and nights. Love, friendship, happiness, life. Always remember at the end of the day all we have are our memories and connections. The stories we live are the things we can give, and including someone in your life, welcoming them to be a part of the most valued possession you have is truely the most beautiful thing on this Earth. I'm excited to finish giving out gifts and sending my love in yet another form.

I've had the pleasure this week to spend much needed time with my family members. I love them all dearly and although I see them on a regular basis I wish I spent even more time with each member. Shockingly I got to visit my Great Aunt who at this point is the closest thing I have to a grandmother. She's amazing, and as I have for the past 20 whatever years of my life, I continue to strive to be just as great of a person as she.

I wish more people appreciated the things they have, wheter its physical or mental. Not everyone is as blessed as others and it's a shame that there are some who just keep wanting, needing, begging, seeking, asking. Be happy with the current, the now. When you're always looking for better there is never a best.

Other things going on in my life that have totalled to my current state. Hmm let's see, Autumn has truely been the biggest test of character for me. Test of morals, test of intergrity, test of my true ideals and wants. If I had to relive September 22th through December 21st, I don't know what I would do. I'd want to say I'd do it all again exactly the same, but in hinesight probably not. Lots of highs and lows, tears and smiles. C'est la vie. I just hope the start of Winter is a death of the negativity and struggles. If not for me personally then for the others around me who need it just as much. I pray almost everynight that the burdens on my friends and families hearts are taken away. Everyone deserves to breathe easy every now and then.

On a totally unrelated matter, I've been thinking a lot about love and relationships this week. I think its the feeling of the season. Sharing with love ones makes one think about having a significant other to share with. I found myself breaking tradition momentarily and instead of watching A Christmas Story all of Christmas Eve night, I put in Love Actually and watched a completely different take on Christmas. So many different ways a relationship can form and grow or end. So much love in people, it's a beautiful thing and maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to have one of my own.

Sad boys grow up, try drugs, and fall in love.

I think the biggest worldwind has been losing my job. I'm glad I wasn't fired, and maybe this is the opportunity I needed to figure out what I want in life and exactly how to go out and get it. However I did like a lot of things about my work, it was also horrific timing and I wish I knew sooner and could plan something. Thankfully there's a small cushion for my bills and I'm able to get some kind of payment, nothing near what I've been making but help nonetheless. Hopefully I find something new soon, and in the meantime can make some cash on the side either from freelancing or payments on debts. You know me I'll figure it out.

I spent a week cleaning my room and assisting on cleaning the house. All of my clothes are finally in my bedroom and I have about five laundry baskets too many. Going through my belongings yet again to donate some things away. Eventually I dwindle down and everything will have a place. Eventually...

My life hasn't been all bads, don't think that. I got things for Christmas I really really wanted, and some of the raddest books ever that make me just want to go out and paint like no other. I also have spent a good amount of time with the best of the best friends a girl could ask for. I saw Adrienne who I only get to see once a year. I hung out with Ebony whom I never spend time with. I went to some shows with Christine & Alexa, always good company as are Fiona & Erica. Shared some smiles and drinks with Josh all weekend, probably my favorite drinking partner next to Sara. Jeff has been home and I couldn't be more excited, I don't think anyone understands the realtionship I have with that boy other than him. I finally got to see Devin who I've missed immensely. He's one of the only people to understand what I'm going through right now. Being home means I actually get to see my parents who are legit my favorite people in the world. I could watch TV in bed with my mom all day and my dad can make any movie better. Even extended the olive branch in attempts to salvage some fallen friendships. I hope the social portion of December continues and improves throughout 09.

Sometime tomorrow I'm going to post a far shorter blog about my favorite things of 08! And not so favorite. Hopefully this will start some good conversations...

With each passing day, I wonder a little less. Not cause I've lost hope or interest; because I know what it is to play the hand that's dealt. You can't always get the winning hand but as long as you keep playing, odds are in your favor...

I'm amazed

2008-12-26T00:07:00.002-05:00

It seriously amazes me that sometimes I associate with the most insincere, ungrateful people. I wish there was a way for the world to open their eyes and they could see just how things are and how things could be for them. I also wish I could do more for those that have done so much for me. My father today damn near broke my heart. I could see and feel the grief surrounding him. He of all people should know that I don't care if he never gets me a gift again, he's given so much already. The fact that I have a bachelor's degree is mainly because of this sacrifice and hard work. If anything I should be giving him so much more.
I'm also amazed that some people I consider great friends have completely disappeared from my life without any notice. I'm definitely use to it by now but it still stings to know someone you'd do anything for would straight up ignore you, unwarranted. Everything happens for a reason...
Speaking of which, I've been dealt a bum hand these past few weeks and it seems that things aren't getting better. Actually worst. I don't know personally how much more bad news I can take, nor do I honestly want to find out. Too bad these things are out of my control. All I can do is pray each night that everything will be alright, in hopes that one of these days I won't awake with the remnants of my nightly tears.
I'm in no way shape or form complaining or nonchalant asking anyone for anything. I just ask that everyone pauses for a minute and realizes how good things are. Even with things in my life being as bad as they are, I'm still grateful that I am able to do the things I do and I have the people that I have in my life. Things can always be worse and tomorrow isn't promised to anyone. So I strive to appreciate each day for what it is, a new day full of opportunity and endless bounds for me to make the most of.

I just hope I remember this if and when things ever get truly bad.

XMas 2k8

2008-12-24T23:59:00.006-05:00

It's that time of year again when I put my issues aside and make a list of things I wish I had, still not a fan. Use this as a guide to my style, doesn't have to be exact but please please please no skulls! By popular demand, I provided links. Thanks in advance!!

Clothing

Glamour Kills

Kid Robot

Ordinary Clothing

Snorgtees

PacSun

Paul Frank

Zumiez

Alt Press

Band Clothing

Motion City Soundtrack shirt
The Academy Is… Red Santi Hoodie
The Academy Is... Long Sleeve Hooded Tee
The Hint Scary Awesome V-Neck
Purevolume shirt
Forever the Sickest Kids hoodie
Farewell Bandana Purple
Bamboozle 2008 Poster

DVDs

Cool World
Armor for Sleep DVD
Boy Meets World
Wacky Races
Secret World of Alex Mack
Short Circuit
Clarissa Explains it All
Blossom
Go
Rob & Big Season 3
Clone High
Robin Hood Men in Tights
Mariah Carey DVD (except Emancipation of Mimi)
The Matrix 3 movie set
Lord of the Rings 3 movie set
Star Wars 6 movie set
Classic 90s Cartoons and shows

Music

The Rocket Summer - Calendar Days; Do You Feel
Armor For Sleep – Smile for Them (CD/Lithograph/Tote Bag Bundle)
The Academy - The Academy EP
Remember Maine - Remember Maine EP
Powerspace - The Kicks of Passion
Over It - Step Outside Yourself; Silverstrand
We Are the Fury - Venus
Angels & Airwaves - I-Empire
Say Anything - ...Is a Real Boy; In Defense of the Genre
Mariah Carey – Mariah Carey; Emotions; Musicbox; Valentines; MTV Unplugged
Say No More - What You Thought You Knew
Rediscover - Out of Touch
Motion City Soundtrack/Matchbook Romance Split
Motion City Soundtrack/Schatzi Split
Yellowcard – Underdog
Punchline - Just Say Yes
The Fury - Infinite Jest
Anberlin - Cities; New Surrender
Self Against City - Self Against City; Telling Secrets to Strangers
Hit the Lights - Until We Get Caught
Asteria
You Me & Everyone We Know - So Young, So Insane
White Tie Affair - Walk This Way
Just Surrender - Stronger Now
Pussycat Dolls - Doll Domination
Story of the Year - The Black Swan
I can make a mess like nobody's business

Books

The Lorax & The Butter Bread Book by Dr. Seuss
Rolling Stone Greatest Album Covers of All Time
Children's books
Anything Kid Robot
Anything MTV
Lord of the Rings (the expensive one huge book)
http://karimrashidshop.com/index.php?cPath=38
An upbeat funky cookbook
100 Words to Make You Sound Smart
American Fashion
Home Studio Home
Fashion Wonderland Book
Fashion Now 2
Absolut 1 & 2
1000 New Designs and Where to Find Them: A 21st-Century Sourcebook - Jennifer Hudson
50 Reading Lists - Spin Media
Action Time Vision - Spin
Art Of Looking Sideways - Alan Fletcher
Basics Design: Colour - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
Basics Design: Layout - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
Basics Design: Print + Finish - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
Colour Index 2 - Jim Krause
Cover Art By: New Music Graphics -Adrian Shaughnessy
Creative Advertising: Ideas and techniques from the World's Best Campaigns - Mario Pricken
DIY: Design It Yourself - Ellen Lupton
Eco-Design Handbook: A Complete Sourcebook for the Home and Office - Alastair Fuad-Luke
Fully Booked: Cover Art and Design for Books - Robert Klanten, M. Hubner
Graphics Alive - Edited by Victionary
Guerrilla Advertising - Ty Montague, Gavin Lucas, and Mike Dorrian
Humble Masterpieces: 100 Everyday Marvels of Design - Paola Antonelli
Icons of Graphic Design - Steven Heller and Mirko llics
Lemon Poppy Seed - Robert Klanten
Logo - Michael Evamy
Patterns 2: Design, Art and Architecture - B. Glasner, P. Schmidt, U. Schondeling
Sorry Trees (Again) - Vince Frost
Tactile: High Touch Visuals - Robert Klanten
The A-Z of Modern Design - Bernd Polster, Claudia Neumann, and Markus Schuler
The Layout Book - Gavin Ambrose and Paul Harris
Things I Have Learned In My Life So Far - Stefan Sagmeister
Twenty Two Tips on Typography - Enric Jardi
Type Idea Index - Jim Krause
Type Selector Swatch - Michael Worgotter
Whatever You Think, Think the Opposite - Paul Arden

Shoes

Converse (make sure the bottom of the shoe says 8)
EcoSNEAKS
Vans
Volcom
DC Shoes
Enties

Games

Scene It: Movies 2
The 90s Game
Let’s Make a Deal DVD
Show Me Yours I’ll Show You Mine
Clue
PS2: Singstar Pop Vol 2
PS2: Singstar Legends
Wii: Boogie Superstar
Wii: SmartyPants
Wii: Dance Dance Revolution Hottest Party 2 w/ Dance Mat
Wii: Big Brain Academy
Wii: Monopoly

Misc

Quesadilla Maker
Laptop sleeve
Band posters
Skate deck
KURZ dirt devil
KWIK dirt devil
Panda calendar
HP TouchSmart All-In-One TV Desktop

Giftcards

Best Buy
Target
Zumiez
Vans
PacSun
Journey's
Torrid
JCPenney
Ticketmaster
Neighborhoodies
Visa/Mastercard/Amex
Old Navy
Delia's

Concert Tickets

Ask for up-to-date list

Magazine Subscriptions

SPIN
Entertainment Weekly
How
Illustration
Communication Arts

When in doubt...

Anything with a panda (except stuffed animal)
Anything argyle or another geometric pattern
Artsy (design) things

True on so many levels

2008-12-16T22:44:00.001-05:00

I've been waiting for a good day
I've been holding back long enough
I've been hurting to tell you some things
it's not the falling of the temperature
that's making all our bones run cold
it's the breeze you make
the presence felt when you're around me

and it feels like I'm at an all-time low

Who knows?

2008-12-15T20:40:00.000-05:00

So where do we go
Where do we go
You cannot know
You will not know
When you just have to fight to be alone

That about sums it up

2008-12-11T09:59:00.003-05:00

Donnie Darko is a freaky movie

2008-12-11T01:15:00.000-05:00

Do you have LGS?

2008-12-09T09:09:00.000-05:00

*cough*Iwannahoodie*cough*

Not quite right

2008-12-07T20:57:00.002-05:00

I just wanted to apologize to anyone that's been affected by my attitude lately. This time of year is a rough time for me as two years ago my grandmother passed away two days before Thanksgiving. No matter how prepared you can be, death is death and my commitment issues have a hard time wrapping my head around the finality of it.
No need for sorrow, I'm fine, seriously. It's just that from time to time, the small things will get to me. Every once in a while something will occur and I'll think about how much I miss that lady. She and I were very much alike and in the later years of her long life we started to bond.
I just ask all of you lovely people in my life to bear with me, especially if I seem distant. There's probably just something else on my mind. Give me a second to gather myself and we'll be good. No big like I said, I'm not depressed or harboring this intense feelings somewhere. Simply put I miss the grey-eyed red-haired lady I spent so many of my youthful summers with. Haha she makes me want to have a child just so I can see what genes he/she would inherit inside and out. If you think I'm blunt and straight-forward you should've seen my grandma she'd make even me gasp.

<3

She got that Vote shirt at Target

2008-12-05T13:47:00.000-05:00

Salty

2008-12-03T10:16:00.001-05:00

I'm too angry to even type or think or vent. I just want to yell, but I can't. FUCK!

Whoa

2008-12-02T15:54:00.002-05:00

Look at that big ass type. Yeah I don't know either. I was clicking around doing my job making things look pretty next thing I know I'm changing my blog layout, go figure. I updated my wishlist eventhough I just did one in October. This one is completely complete as of December 1st. But I'm sure I forgot millions of things and as my friends (to the friends that read this and not the innocent bystanders) I know you will get me things I never even knew I wanted. Kinda how that thing works. I also started doing my shopping for the lot of you. Saturday I'm gonna go to town and just knock everything out there are only 2 people I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to get. I'll figure it out and make it count.

By the way, I have the most realistic dreams sometimes. Guess that comes with the vivid imagination...

I should be somebody's stylist by now...

2008-12-01T11:24:00.002-05:00

Oh Hot Topic and your layers...

Not a good look

2008-11-30T20:06:00.003-05:00

When your friend turns at you and looks with the deepest sincerity and says "fuck your life." Damn... It's all I know so it's what I live. Everything happens for a reason, yanno. Might not make sense or go as you'd wish but it happens and we gotta deal with it. I'm a pro at rolling with the punches. It also helps when good things occur, cause when its good it's usually super super good.

Monique take your own advice

2008-11-25T20:23:00.000-05:00

When you say things like this and don't follow through, you then end up feeling like this.

Hi I'm Monique

2008-11-25T10:42:00.002-05:00

Massively updated my myspace profile. I have this ridiculous need to update my life, not really sure why I just wish I could clean my room as easily.
One thing I'll never get is why people care so much about what other people are doing? Why does it matter where I am, who I'm with, or how I got there? Does my existence threaten you? I wish one of you would just explain it to me cause I'm all kinds of lost. If I'm hanging out somewhere I'm obviously doing me, you should do the same. I guess I should just be glad that I'm confident enough in my own train wreck of a life to not need to feed my ego off of someone else's misfortunes. I mean in all honesty half the time I don't even notice people. That's what we call being in your element.
One request I do have is, if you're going to talk shit about me, use the facts. There's so much accessible information that could probably damage my reputation (or lack there of) that no one needs to assume anything or try to draw conclusions.
I also don't get how someone can judge who deserves what. I personally say the more the merrier, legit. Also isn't it the band's call who they put on their guest list or who they bring inside? If you don't work for the band, management or their label you don't get a say. I mean feel free to tell anyone and everyone who will listen, not to associate with me. But when I've done nothing to prove your words true, I doubt they will be more than just useless banter. Give it up!

I miss Vegas, at least those kids had a legit reason to hate me.

The stars give really good advice sometimes

2008-11-25T08:38:00.002-05:00

It can be challenging to manage your powerful emotions now that the Moon is back in your sign. Fortunately, you have the ability today to transform a difficult feeling into an inspirational thought. Sharing your hopes for the future can be motivating to others and can ultimately make you feel more positive about yourself.

I'm one of the most positive, genuine people I know so maybe I can motivate myself by motivating others. I mean things are already looking up this week, no impromptu car troubles and I'm off Thursday & Friday. Yay happiness!

I rarely ever do this

2008-11-24T12:36:00.004-05:00

I've found myself wandering a lot, looking for answers to unasked questions. Not the most useful thing in the world. This past week has been straight up ridiculous, so I decided I'm actually going to recap it instead of my usual cryptic banter. Banter, I've been saying that word a lot.

I saw my favorite band twice and I couldn't be happier. There's something about The Academy Is... that makes everything right. I guess that's what happens when you're a megafan. Every time I looked up at that stage my smile would be bigger and what's better than sharing such an experience with some of your closest friends. Philadelphia was so freakin empty it was a little disheartening because I think TAI has paid enough dues that they shouldn't still be the band in my pocket.
Entered Electric Factory way later than I intended but I think that happens everytime I frequent that venue, did get free parking which is always a win. First person I see when entering the door is Andrew. Haven't seen him since August which is hella long when I would see him multiple times a month. Was not expecting him to leap over the merch table, haha. Love that kid. Got to chat it up for a bit, visited Erica & Fiona upstairs. Talked about Hey Monday since I missed them, one day I'll check em out live. Danced around and got stares because obviously people don't dance to music in 2008. Christine and I just never got the message. The rest of that night is a blur, sick ass light show and breath taking preformance. After the show hung out in the rain talked about the dying population of red heads then watched some people til they creeped me out too much. Massive wave of sleepiness hit me and I sped my orange baby back south.
Friday was rediculous after much waiting, a little nap I finally made it to Fells Point to celebrate Sara being legal. Lots of free shots and drinks, good times all around. Met some fun people and decided we need to explore Baltimore more and find other fun bars to spend our weekends in. Still can't believe she's legit now. Come on Christine!!
Saturday I went shopping, fell in love with these jeans and even more so because I needed a smaller size. Yay starvation! I need to get back in the flow of working out, my brain needs the clarity. Sunday went to see my babies play acoustic and it reminded me of 05. They looked so happy and I was glad that fans came and new faces stayed around. I have a feeling 09 will be a good year for them. Fingers crossed.
Monday!!! AKA Day two of the bogus journey. Didn't see My Favorite Highway but enjoyed the longer than ever drive to DC. According to William, they were really good and look at that they are now signed to a major label. Well shit! Anywho finally get there head over to Will Call so I can get my tickets. As I'm about to go inside I hear "MONIQUE!!!!!!" not really sure where it comes from I see sketch ass bro all kinds of bundled up, squint and realize it's Andrew. Big hugs and then I get stoked cause I remember 930 does all the merch which means major hangs. Good times dancing around. There was some sketchy stalker-like activity going on. I wish I could go places and enjoy a show without being lurked out in the corners, seriously? My life not that glorious trust me, neither is my friends. Alexa and Christine were somewhere, I watched TAI's set. Almost melted when William pulled out the acoustic and played A NEW SONG!!! egads. Show ended talked to some kids, one girl was a bit too sassy with me. Waiting for D to count and hung with Dyana for a bit. Chilled downstairs to get warmed, missed William by 2 secs then went outside to join my froze friends. So glad I didn't work that show. Fun times after the show, glad that Michelle got her car back. Didn't get to see one of my favorite people to see on tour but did get some awesome looks. Thank you fans for the amazing cupcakes, didn't mean to get a chocolate one but it was still delicious. Lots of stories being told as we caught up on the last 3 months of our lives. Finally said goodbye, eventually got home then had to deal with car issues. Not fun, especially when people aren't cooperating. Glad that nothing was wrong and everything got taken care of, not glad for literally getting minutes of sleep.
Tuesday I was absolutely miserable at work, could barely stay awake and as soon as I got home I passed out for a little more than 12 hours. Much needed rest.
Woke up dumb early on Wednesday due to sleeping the previous day away, Alexa was also awake since she slept almost as much as I did Tuesday night. She kept me company most of the morning. Hilarious twitter conversations once Christine & Zack woke up. Then wham! I realized it was the 19th. November 19th. Wednesday November 19 2008. Well shit, never thought it would exist in the flesh. Put my game face on, prepared myself for a loooong day and headed to work. Work flew by, hopped in my car slid over to Sonar. Saw a couple familar faces but had business to take care of so didn't leave the car. Did however donate my badass parking spot to Frenchy French then headed up 83. Phone finally started working again, apparently towers were down all over Baltimore so I just needed to get out of that area.
I got to Chameleon Club so freaking late, sorry again Alexa. I did however finally get to see DGD and they were nuts. Next time they come to Baltimore, I'll def be there. Next up was Senses Fail so I was in heaven. 2nd favorite band, uh yes please! Played a good variety of songs and I heard basically everything I wanted to hear. Headed out to the car to get dan's gift, waited around for what seemed like forever. Chatted to the three I wanted to see before I left. Haha even got a request that I didn't get a chance to fulfill, sorry bro. Might've been for the better since we're not 100% sure if I'd get slapped in the face or not. Wanted to stay and catch up at the bar but decided to go back to my own city.
Fastest trip home ever. Left at 10:40 arrived at 11:45. For the record, Lancaster to Baltimore should take an hour 40. Haha reminded me of driving to Pittsburgh, oh man Pittsburgh... Anywho get there and there's still a good amount of kids around. See some familar faces who are surprised to see me, I explained I stopped by to say hey to everyone on my way home. They asked if I saw a friend I didn't even think they knew I knew then remembered DC did happen. The more people I ran into the more I wish I went to the show. It's not often these kids are legit in my city. Maybe it'll become a regular stop on future tours. HTL filled me in on all kinds of things that I had no recollection on. Note to self, what happens in Vegas is better when you can remember. Haha Kyle also filled me in on a few other things. That was a good night afterall. Ran into Christine and Zack as I traveled around Saratoga street. Ended up inside Sonar where I saw even more people. Definitely my favorite kids to hang out with, hands down. Many many many shots were taken. I think we stopped making toasts and just kinda looked all around raised glasses and drank. Throughout the night more people ended up showing up and more shots were taken. I would've been better off with a glass of vodka at one point.
"It's funny cause it's true" I just kept thinking that, watching the nonsense take place. I really wish more people were that honest in my life. Reason number a million why I love that kid. Just when I thought I had everything figured out another turn of events would come about. I legitamently felt bad for not going to the show, apparently no one else cared cause I showed up eventually. Guess that's friendship. I mean it's not like I deserved to be at that show anyway... 4am bus calls mean very little sleep for Monique, but I wouldn't trade that night in for the world. Spring needs to get here ASAP, starting to miss them already. Maybe I'll plop in for one more Sassynight before it ends.
Heavily considered going to NJ on Thursday but instead found myself at Recher. ETID are so freaking good, better than what I was expecting and The Bronx are always a treat. The weekend was full of hang outs with friends and intimate parties. Wasn't feeling quite like myself so didn't want to be out and about full party mode. It was quite uplifting to see my friend and his new room. It's like we're grown ups or something. Haha. Miss that kid more and more each tour. Ended the weekend with a bra fitting, Tim Gunn would be proud. Not stoked to buy all new bras, but I'm sure the fellas will be more than thrilled to know the size, me not so much.
All in all it's been a silly month full of surprises and smiles. A little heartache and a lot of eye-opening. Wonder what else is left in these cards. I do know that I need to get on the ball cause if what I was told Wednesday is true, I don't have much time left!

Yay Winter!

2008-11-24T09:05:00.003-05:00

You're an idiot

2008-11-21T11:21:00.002-05:00

I just legit read my blog for the first time ever. What kind of people are you? Haha I could barely read it and it's about my life. Sorry I'm kinda out there sometimes and a little more than emo when I actually sit down and think. Sorry for even providing such content. But thanks for reading commenting and sharing with friends.

With that being said, continue lurking...

Overrated boys and attention starved girls

2008-11-21T09:38:00.003-05:00

Remember that one time when everything was going right, but somehow someway at the very last turn of events things went so wrong? Yeah that's a bummer but I have to keep believing that everything happens for a reason. And that what will be will be. It is good to know that I'm not crazy and imagining things. Also equally good to know that despite the environment and circumstances I can still hold my own. A lot of truth was spoken but so much still left to be said. In retrospect more should have been put out on the table but maybe that just means this journey is yet to be finished.

To feel used, to feel lust, to feel wanted for once
To know there's somebody else who's dying to feel anything

Am I the only one that remembers

2008-11-18T08:25:00.003-05:00

So in May the very stylish Rachel Ray was accused for being a terrorist. True Story... Now everybody and their momma are rockin Keffiyeh scarves. I think someone owes Rachel an apology... I think it was a good look in the Spring, now it's become this staple of "if I wear this I must be posh" No. No wearing a damn scarf doesn't make people say wow look at you. There is more to fashion and style then to follow a trend. Reminds me of an episode of Doug... For the record, same goes for vests. I should become a stylist or a buyer.

PS: I'm a fan of the direction my blog is taking as of late. Oh the media!

50's + Best Buy = <3

2008-11-14T10:42:00.000-05:00